Just saying

i'm quite random now. =s
i don't know what i'm feeling.
seems like no good picture that good enough to describe my situation.

Hi,Mom. =D

30th August 2011, my mom's turning 49...
Happy Birthday,Mom..
So much stuff here inside me that I couldn't even speak those up to you.
I ended up only saying a simple 'Happy Birthday'
I'm pretty much pathetic,ei? *sigh
I'm not those girls who could go and type tons of words, creating an essay or do silly stuffs for their mom. I'm not those girls who would log on facebook,mention their mom and create a poetic post for their moms' borthday.
I'm just me, the one who promise myself that I'll do more than that with my own skill,my own money,my own effort for you. If I haven't manage to do it, then I won't.
Maybe I'm not that great as those girls,mom.
Maybe you won't read this, yet I know you understand me. =)

happy birthday..

Can you?

=)

Can you?

I'm home..

Nitey Nite,B..
I'm now breathing here, feels like I've just left this town for an hour,everything remains the same,even my bedroom too.... everything feels like a blink of eyes,not a month and 6 days... should I be happy or sad about this? Everytime I look at these things around me,it feels like dream ,yet I could feel,smell and touch them. =( =) =|
My life begins to be more and more abstract.... you know what I mean right?


Hoping the best for my friend out there, who is having another tough time of his life.Don't stay there and keep it yourself, I always type this, shout it loud and share if you want. There are people here who will listen to you.

=|

what?

Can I?

I know I deserve better
Maybe it's all my fault
I should have learnt what I never knew before since the beginning.
I wanna learn.
Badly.

Rabbit



hai,how are you?
 somebody's missing you here
are you fine?

I'm Sorry...

I don't know how to say this, feels like today is the worst day of my days here in Spore.


Friday night my mom arrived here,it's about 11-12pm. =(
It's not like I didn't know that this all will end this,but it's because I've ralized it since it haven't even started yet that makes it painful.
I'm sorry.
Really sorry that I don't even have time to have a breakfast or lunch or dinner with you. I'm sorry that I can't be a daughter that spend my time to simply ask how's your day there in Medan. I'm sorry that I have always dissapointed you. I'm sorry. Really sorry. I'm sorry that I am a daughter who can't even show you what you are for me. I'm sorry... I don't know how to describe this, I never cry this hard that I can't even type a sentence properly without having to delete a word. I never feel this tired becoming a daughter named Carissa Clarence. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I know I'm not a person who deserve your care, I can't even have time to just company you to the airport. I think I'm not even a person. I don't know what I am. I'm not a human.
I never regret being a daughter for you...
I'm just too proud that I have someone like you that I think I don't deserve that place to be your child. I know, I always know that I will never be able to give you everything you've given to me till today.

I'm so tired.
Tired.
Being like this.

Silly one.two.three

So,as I promised earlier.... stupid silly stuffs on my phone. =)

what time was it? I forget.

Silly art or what? =p

Husband and Wife or Wife and Husband

Two Oma"

Darlin Darla *lalalala*

black.black.black

I don't know the scale, this is literally my college

hectic days

I want mine~~ so stingy,you know, that I drew urs,where's mine? =3=

first cooking in these days

>;]

stupid spiral zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Death book. DAMN HEAVY.

*speechless*

Above this text is officially a sleeping beauty aka Rangga SM*SH wannabe. XDD

this? homemade. a gift for someone too.

yup. homemade.

this is the reason. always.

Alamak, automatically started and ended by these 3 gays~ hahahaha.

Snap Snap

We did went to several places, by the end of the day,we came to this place, all the stuffs are classic and peranakan. Great place.

these are some of them
purely snapped no photoshop
I need MORE practice. ><

A little bit to pay my sorry to you,guys. =p

Hi,people.....it's been a week right?
*sigh, I can't help myself for being sooooo lazy to updating my blog. ><"
So,I'll make this BEAUTIFUL + ACCEPTABLE offer for you, hhehe, I've went to ACS Dance Night last Saturday night,met my friends and those dances really brought back all that excited feeling in me. I really wish I could dance again. =\
Seeing my friend who wasn't a dancer dance like that really makes me proud, I wish you know how I feel. haha.XD
So,anyway, I'll just run through my whole week using photos. =) Hope you enjoy these..

Monday night with these girls :

See. Stupid persons doing moron stuffs. LOL

*cuit2!!!

>3<

Sunny Tuesday :

Movie-ing! X3

Went to Marche to meet others =3

 

=9

Nata. The girl of that day. =)

Wednesay. going to Orchard. Saw and Shot this book. I didn't read it, it's simply because of that stupid lips and words. =p

 Thursday/Friday? :

Tried Ikea's

Saturday night....

ACS Dance~ lalalala~

 Yesterday :

Walking around finding stuffs to be captured

We actually went to several spots to snap pjotos. I'll upload some of them in the next posts, and another photos of silly stuffs that has been in my phone for awhile.. =)

Hey,YOU. who seems to have your NaNo" mood once in 2-3 days, do you still read this? C'mon....stop that act, aren't you tired keep on blaming yourself? X_x" Just try to share.... you can leave any comments here if bbm isn't any good,okay? I'm not just typing here, I'll check it if you really do. =)