Heart and hate you, guys. =]

Questars

I miss them, and I will miss them too.
but it seems like they don't

What should I say?

Maybe i've to stop talking.stop feeling.stop reminding.
Never ever judge just from what i say here,what i type here, what you listen from me. If you do then you don't know me. Don't think you will know me from this blog.
Stop that suprised sentences like "i thought you are that strong, i can't believe this,so you r fake for all this time?,blablabla" seriously,it sucks. Even Jesus the mightiest can shed tears,guys.
I never pretend to be strong,i just try to be one. You are the one who keep on telling yourself you have such cold-hearted friend like. It's not my fault to be whatever person i want to be, am i wrong?
stop that judgement about me as i'm a strong or wtf person i am for you. I never run over the hills and scream,"Hey,people! I'm a strong and fierce person! Come and prove it yourself!" i tell you,you won't succeed even if i scream that phrases out loud.
Is it wrong to be a fragile one? I'm a human,for whatever sake!
I never tell you to let me be your role model, if you decided to do it, then it's your consequences to be dissapointed. I don't know, don't you ever think about how i hate myself? I tell you people who can't stop judging this way,you'll hardly have friends or even just to be others friends, so don't come and sit down infront of me and ask, " Why is it this hard to have friends and a better life?" Go find your answer from yourself. You never know how hard to admit the way you hate yourself and then get up again, fall again, get up again, n end up falling again because of these kind of 'I-love-to-judge-you' mortals.

I see this kind of life really end.
If it can't recover and i'll let this one flow. I'm so done with such things.
You never know how it hurts to lose people you care,
How it hurts for you can't stop caring for people who ignore you,
How it hurts to be a person who is called as a stupid one,
How it hurts to be abandoned,
How it hurts to know that people actually not care about you, they just love to pretend,
How it hurts that you cry over things that should be done and gone for long time,
How it hurts to look at pther life,
How it hurts to be me.
So why?
Everytime i need myself to get up,you do this to me?
Infact i'm just that ugly person, am i this pity for you?
Don't tell me i don't learn, yes, i'm stubborn, but i learn.
If i ever know to know people is to be hurted this much, i don't thinki can say thanks to Him.
So, while you are busy on judging me, have you ever once think that i never regret on knowing you?
I know i'm imperfect, and i never beg you to appreciate me.

Last,I'm not judging here,just typing my words.
I'm hateable after all.

Well,I am not one then. =(

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand.  The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.  ~Henri Nouwen

I'm not blaming anyone

Hey,I'm so sad these days. i don't know why.
At the beginning I thought it's just the side-effects of that 'toomanythingsIhavetofinish,GOD!'
but then I realised it's not that.
This afternoon one of my friend begin to nag around about that farewell performance,
I came to a question and ask her, "Hey,don't you tell Ms.Tatty that we can't join the crowd?"
Truly I say, I wasn't disappointed in what she replied me just now,because I think what she said was right, she replied me, "Yah! Go and tell her by yourselves. It's your responsibility for not wanting to join it, you yourself had seen how excited she was. You know she never speak her mind like this one before, she requested this performance by herself from many others and you just go to her office and said "Se,se,walang be thiau bu." . What kind of face will I have to come up with if I had to go and tell that you can't dance?!!?!"
Seriously, she bursted like all I do is saying "Hey,I'm the one who don't want to join and I decided that this team won't too"
That time I're boosted with anger you know,it's not like I didn't think that this problem will appear in the farewell,I've known it since the beginning, yet people still blame me thought.
And I too replied, " Yah,raised your voice again and tell the one who reject it. It's not like I'm the one who want this thing to happen, can't you just raise your volume and say it clearer?"
What she did after it was nagging alllllllllllllll way through the bell, but she loosen her voice.
So what should I do?
you tell me.
I know I don't have anybody to blame. (Really.I mean this one)
However I don't seems to find out any solutions.
If it's some problems about atmosphere I don't think it will be bugging any of us, but if you have lost your passion, then I give up.
i'm so sad.
I'm about to shed tears in blood when I type this sentence,
our days in school will over in hours, but all of us don't seems care enough.
Even though its the moments and memories of yourselves, you never care. ='(

那些日子不再有...

Sorry friends, dunno why, this song always bugs me,making me emo in a very GREAT way.
I'm sharing the lyric to all of you then... =]

All these years, by myself, travel through, storm and rain
There were tears, there were lies
Precious memories we shared, kept me strong, from the pain,
loneliness, and goodbyes

Thoughts of you, still remain
In my heart

(Chorus)
Friends walk this life hand in hand
Though those times will not return
Your kind words, help withstand
The hardships, I have learned
With friends you won’t be alone
but soon someday, we must leave
stepping in, the unknown
Don’t forget
You have me..

**Repeat whole song 1x, chorus

(Bridge)
Keep in mind, till the end
You have me, as your friend

————–

这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽
真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

How to???? Omo Omo ----------- ><"

Hey,what to say to Mommy Tatty if we can't participate in dancing?
=S
I'm really in trouble.
Look at her antusiasm and you will definitely know why I am in trouble.
X'(

How can he be such a hilarious guy? XDD

I found things that really made my night tonight.
hahahahahahahhahahaha.
damn funny!
can you imagine a 30 something years old acek2 with this kind of face :

 

And you'll say to people, "Hey, he's my friend!"

wkwkwkwkwkwkwkkw

He really made my day!

XD

*thumbsssss up!!*