i should avoide things before it comes to be a reality.

To Hoiy Hoiy =)

Truly, may I say...

that i've missed you since the day you said you will be going to Jakarta to continue your study. I never know I'll be this sad,I'll miss someone like this,I never shed my tears till there were no more tears the time you have to take your flight to Jakarta. I never try to be this strong to try not to miss a person like this before. I never miss someone like... I want to hear your voice so bad,I want to know how are you,what are you doing in this moment,I want to see you laugh at me,I want to see the way you tease me with one of your hand closing your laughter. I want to see your face soooooo bad that I could have done something stupid such as buying a ticket to Jakarta as soon as I can.  

Have you poisoned my life that bad,dear the one who change me? =X 

I never miss someone till I keep on looking at my phone,waiting your text. Just a simple Hi will make my day. I never feel something which felt like a heart-broken thing you know, I kept on wondering what way can I describe my feeling last night, waiting to know how are you there, knowing that I'm very very very sad but my eyes won't drop any kind of tears. I avoid musics, I avoid songs, I avoid photos, and the thing I avoid the most are things I've made with you. 

Knowing that you have given something I never had before.  Something that I could never be able to describe in words, something that beyond diamond,gold,pearls,silvers. Something I never ever think I will get from a person or any of my friends. Yet it happens to be gifted by you. =] cutely.simply.nicely.humbly.un-neatly.passionately.just like you. hahahaha.

I smile. Smile a lot yesterday,because I don't know how to act right. You are going to Jakarta in the day I know that I'll be going to persue 3 years of my study in Sing. This is what I will categorized as galau. hhhh. =P Hey,you are the one who introduce me the way 'hahahaha' can be typed effeciently >>> 'hhhhhhh' =333

Can you promise me you'll go to La Salle to continue your study if you can,like you've said before? If it's yes for my wish, I'll be waiting you there. =]

I've never known someone who appreciate me like you do, treat me like you do. Someone who prove things with acts, not talks and bullshits. just simply you.... I'm really greatful to have you. 

Maybe you never know,you're mostly the reason why I quit hoping, and you are always my reason to keep on hoping again. Quite hilarious right? If it's IELTS that you need to pursue your study, then go for it. Okay, maybe sometimes I'll try to give you what you wish to have, I'm so sorry if it bothers you that much =( I'm not going to do it again then, >< but can you promise me too that you'll do whatever it takes (in a good way iah =P) to have what you wish to have? That way I'll stop frustating on helping you. =PP

I'm not hoping to know all of your problems, but I think it'll be nice if you can share just a tiny drop.Maybe that way it can be solved. I'm not telling you that I'm capable to solve every single problem in you, but at least, I'll be glad to be the one who may say "everything's going to be fine =)". I know you know what I mean. I don't have to talk any longer bout this,right? =p

Four years may be tough.Within that years,maybe we'll change.Again.Maybe you'll find someone better than me,I may find another amazing person in my life. I think the thing which is the most important is the present,now,how things are mantained by us so that it'll still the same,and getting much better. Am I not right? hhhh. I'm not willing to lose anyone again. not anymore. you know that I never see you as a replacement od anybody in my life, maybe ones will think I am. Honestly,I'm not. You are you, no one will ever be you.

I'll post longer and longer and longer if I keep on typing.

I think sometimes it's better to be typed when the time's right.not once in a glance. hehe.

I don't think the word 'thankyou' can simply describe everything you've done to me.Really. Even hugs and kisses don't. What do you want me to do to describe what I feel? haha. If only you are in crush on me,hhhhhhhh, you'll just be the 99,99% perfect as a person. 

imu.. i know you too. ;p

Just sad.

i'm making this little book,B.
I'm so sad.
damn sad that I wanna cry everytime I talk or even just think about it.
I'm too sad.
Sad that regret always comes last.
I'm desperately sad.
That I've to know somebody that change my life like this.
But I'm glad.
Glad that He gives me this chance.
I'm glad.
That He sent my friend to change me.

just some questions

I found out this site : click here

and got some answers about me :

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

05 + 06 = 11 CX

To my managers,mami and U-know members. I heart you. =]
I don't know how to say the meaning of 05/06/11 because of you. hahaha. I wonder will I have another joy like this, exactly like what I got from you. =]

and to you. the one that maybe never 'click' on femmepurplelicious.blogspot.com anymore.... hehe.

=p=

ummmmm.....

still mourning. not because someone passed away. hehe. I'm just preparing myself to have a twisted life AGAIN.
people start to say this to me, "C'mon,you're too overreactinnnnngggg okay.It's not like the world will end soon" | "Yes, I know... but..."
Yeah,I admit it, I'm probably over reacting. I take things too seriously sometimes. i know i shouldn't act this way, but when you feel like losing someone who you treat as a brother/sister. you'll know what this feels like.
When some'thing'/'one' which is the reason you forget things when you're upset/sad has became the reason you're 'grieving' , you'll know what I feel. =]
Hope you all understand what I mean. I'm indeed over-suffered now. ha ha.

I love these picts that I don't know how many times I've posted them. X'3

Last Standing U-Know...

I'm indeed..... sad.

I hate this. this feeling which,you know, I have buried all this years.It comes again. I've been very very carefull so I won't feel this anymore. Yeah,you can identify this as sad. However I think it's better for me to call this situation as complicated. This is why I hate all goodbye. There's no good in every bye I had. =(

I hate it when myself haven't prepare for that stupid thing called distance and apart, because I know, those things will change half of a person.Although we may still seems very close,we won't. I hate this kind of bye. ==" shit.shit.SHIT.

This is why I never want to know anybody seriously, but it seems like I tend to know people 'carefully and sensitively'. ><" See,it always end like this, I hate myself. I have to learn to let go. They have their lives to live. They have their rights to pursue their dreams.

but why you guys must act this way? When you know I don't have much time left, you act this way. you make all things clearer that I don't have that 'TIME's left with you. You know what,this kind of act drive me nuts,really. And why must you one of those people who affect my life this much? I know whether it's next year,next month or next week,or even tomorrow, it will still not enough for me. I know,this thing will come sooner and later,but....

you know.

I'm speechless. ='(

Each of you seems to come,hit my life,you change myself,and when I open my eyes, you leave me.