Fear

i feel like i screw my own life today.
3 weeks left.
5 days till exam.
i don't know what to expect.
i can't even imagine how will i be able to pass 5th april.
i feel that feeling again.
yeah,that.
where it's beyond scared and afraid.
this was what i felt last year.
fear.
fear.
fear.
even waking up in the morning and find that i'm still alive, i'm still scared.
what's wrong with me?
i should thanked God, not whining like this.
but what to do.
i'm scared. afraid.
i have nobody to run to.
sigh.
i hate being alone.