Daze

Try to

love

my life

:(((((((( Eotoke?

I put alot of effort, but it seems to be none for you,isn't it?

Black hole

Empty

 

 

by Me.

 

Misery

I feel so sad. again.Can't tell her this.
I'm not brave enough to do this to her.
Today I'm going to register my specialism course in Semester 2, but I'm in doubt.
Really doubt what I'm choosing,the path I have to choose is horrible for me. What if, this isn't the path I want? What if I only listen to others compliments and never search in the deepest part of my heart , who am I?

I cry alot this week, sitting infront of my laptop makes me cry,chit chatting with my friend makes me shed my tears, looking at the TV makes me cry, even looking at the white space in my room makes me cry. I don't know why is this happening to me. Waking up in the morning hasn't been as exciting as it used to be, I often feel sad just right after I open my eyes to see where I am. Do I even enjoy my life? I doubt it. Actually, I feel alone, months here doesn't mean that I can't find any new friends here, yes I can, but I just feel they aren't those what I've been searching for.

I have to leave or at least try to avoid those people who even give me another pressure, who can't even realize how I care about them.





Can't you understand my feeling when I really need you to listen and give me some thoughts of yours? It is not that I've been so greedy that I want you to just listen and listen and listen to my nags, but can't you just give one time for me, when you just listen and try to understand me? What you do all this time was keep telling me about you you you and only you when I'm telling you my problems, telling you things that you said you want to know about me. Don't you realize how annoying somebody are when they interrupt you serious conversation with him? When I stop telling you things, you said that I treat you differently because I can't open myself and tell you what I want to say. So,what should I do? You keep doing this to me that I'm tired, I try not to and just live my life normally but I can't.
If only somebody read this, can you pass this post to this person I'm talking about ?
You never know how you treat me. When I'm this miserable, sometimes you make it horrible... :)

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not really in a good mood,but I'll post things bout 9th October soon.

Above are those silly people.

I miss one photo I guess.

Ohayo-u..

Good Morning...


Decided to post a random thing about this before I go to school :)

would love to have them tomorrow morning.

Hey,Scarlet :))

I actually searched on some pictures and wanted to dedicate this to my birthday gal today, Helen Susanti :)
Happy 18th! :**

be hapy :')

You should be one. Successfull n admirable one. :3

top left one is so HELEN! XDDD

=D nice?

:)


Redish.

fashion?

i think i'm sick of fashion.

='(

what should I do?

i really wanna scream.

Hi,10th..

October's in the town.
Time flies.
So does my age.
My last -teen experience will come in a week.
not to excited, but somehow wondering how will it be.
my wish?
I wish they will know how to spoil my wish.
Because I'm simply praying I can get something I never imagine.
It doesn't have to be a thing.
just a simple unexpected greeting will be great.
I miss my eighteen moment already.
I miss you. guys. :')

silly.

There's no way

i wish i could change
i wish i could stop being the same old me
i wish i could change
i wish i could be who you want me to be
i wish i could change
i wish i could stop putting my blues on you

Burn

Dedicated to one of my friend... =]
Wish you read and listen to this...

Let it burn... can you?

Eat Me Up

you've eaten me up.. somehow.

Hey,there..
I would love to type and post something here. But I don't know how to start and tell you all this curiosity in me...
Someone has changed. I think myself too.
I don't know. I really don't know what's in my head and my heart.
Life has been boring in some ways. God, it's not even a year... eotoke?
What I need to get back to normal?
I have been in this case for what? months?
*sigh* 

Top Shop
what do you think?

I've been wondering.. How are you? Fine or ... ?
I don't want to feel anything.
You know, because when I started to, I'll crash.
How 'bout you?
Have we been honest to each other lately?
I think we miss lots of chit-chat time, don't we?