Because I'm not you and you aren't me.

It's not that easy.

I'm not going to say sorry.

Just wanna say it's damn hard.

not easy at all.

When you = me, you'll know how I fell.

Read this one. It's for all my friends. =]

Wondering. Does writing really help me?

Should I stop?

These days I've been thinking of thanking my friends.Mostly to those who just know me these couple of years. Thankyou.

At least,we have spent 1-2 years knowing each other,mates...=]

Thankyou that you have fulfilled one of my dreams,it's to know you.

Thankyou that you have let me know some characters,like...I have never met before.

Thankyou for your care.

Thankyou for reply-ing my letters,you know who you are.='>

Thankyou for you have let me went inside your stories.

Thankyou for letting me know that behind those smile,you had tears.

Thankyou for your sorry-s.

Thankyou for you have tried your best to understand me.

Thankyou for you have texted/bbm-ed me just wondering what I am doing. (again.this one.thank you,my pals! you will know who you are XPP =*)

Funny,it hasn't been a month of our new semester and I really think we have run out of time...

Thankyou for accepting this hateful person into your friend list.

I wonder why I'm this melow,haha.we still have lots of exam to go. and I'm stucked here.

Maybe there are things I should forget,things to be erased by me.

Maybe there are things will be forgotten by my stupid brain, therefore I post this one now.

Maybe tears will shed out from my eyes next 3 months and I'll forget to thank you yet keep crying, so, as I still remember how to say thankyou,I don't wanna lose you. =]

No matter how imbicile you are, I still thanked you for reconizing this moron as your friend.

Don't cry when you read this thing again and again and again,will you? =']

Coz i'm not.

Bring back my fun.

a line on your face?

You will never know it is a smile or not.

not a _

I'm not a Super Girl.

I'm human.

Won't survive any longer.

This ain't my story.

I'm Clarence, I left part of my life 

and 

I couldn't find it.

It's raining outside when I'm about to type again tonight.

I hope things really change.

           I don't even know how to describe myself.Now.feels like some things are different inside. Maybe people start to ask,"what's so wrong?" I don't know.Help me find it.

          When this eyes meet that eyes now, things have changed. They never be the same anymore. Part of me doesn't like it, another quarter's searching for the things that gone wrong, and another one wants more. Sometimes I think.... maybe i'm too selfish as a person. I'm trying not to think about things,but still, they come to me. I hate to be a person like me right now. I'm a hateful person to be honest and I don't like it. ='(

I'm not trying hard enough,am I? Nobody really care though. Looks like you are struggling alone to fix things but I'm not... 

           Do you know how does it feel to have ones that knows you without having to say a word ? Like he/she can 80-90% answer things that comes out from your heart,not your mouth. I lose one. I don't know why I am thinking this way,but I think I lose one when all I have is one. O,o How 'bout you? Do you have any?

           I never know things will really affects me like this. That's why I tend to keep doing things like what I did before this and stay like that,because I know,things like this will appear once I step ahead.

           OmG,I don't understand why I'm typing these stupid lines.==" 

I don't know how to end it. Must it be this painful? zzzzz. *i don't have a right vocabulary to describe the word so I use painful.*

          Must I be this kind of human with this selfish thing in my body. Jesus! I've struggled once enough,and I hate to have this one again. 

Maybe I'm right, this life's not my story. 

I'm the second actress in a well written story book.

Are.Not.

=(

I want it back.

You are here but you're not.

what can I do to make it as normal as it should? 

I don't know which part has gone wrong.

Wogh!

Too Tired.

I'm just exhausted these days.

about everything.

Myself

Need to find and love myself again. 

Life's too good to be abandoned,am I right?

Some courage will be great. =)

I want a new life with new things in it...

But not so true,some things can remain still, or better?

Leave

Feels like wanna leave my life soon.

This moment : doesn't care about such thing like regret.

Am I this selfish?

Insane

Leave me. I'm not normal. =="

I just wanna do things normally.like I used to. I can't. Why?

Is it this hard to lose something? To let go I guess?

zzzzzzzzzz.

Is it me? I think I'm not normally me. and I hate it. I can't do things I usually did and in the usual way. 

WAAAAAGgGGGGGgGGgggggHhhhHHhHhhhh!!!! ><

Tweets

I can't set my hopes too high, cause every hello ends with a goodbye.

I distance myself from people because in the end, they're only going to leave.

My heart is my worst enemy.

I acted like it wasn't ɑ​ big deal, when really it was breaking my heart. 

what make me sad isn't because now u are not n u do not, but because u were and u did

Sometimes saying "I'm happy we're just friends" is like saying, "I love you but I won't tell you"

See? Those are tweets. ckckck. XDD 

I take some of them and paste it here. hehe.

The best one! I save it for the last!

When you're STRESSED, you eat chocolate,cake, and sweets.. Why? Because STRESSED spelled backwards is DESSERTS!

That's why you are here,people, Appetisers.Main.Desserts.Supper. =p=

Once I'm cursed too.

Stage and mind : Trying to pull myself away. I'm so that into you that I think I should pull it away, shouldn't I?

Everybody's moving, step ahead,while I'm sitting, typing my stupid keyboard and starring desktop. =="

When will this buddy called lazy leave my life? =3=

Never realize I've been doing things that depressed my life.

Should I ask again those months? I've spent it recklessly. Can I call this one 'bit regret?-ha.ha-

Maybe I should pay things I have done (but not with the one I hurted.) =3 

Which one will you pick to be rewinded and changed? I pick the one in your car, retreat and 19th Nov. hhhhhh.

But I never regret 21st Nov night.hhhh. Scolded and I'm glad,wkwkwk *silly rite?* ,at least I know another thing about you. It's good to be upset like that once awhile. Should I do something like that once again , it's quite funny to remember how you curse me. hwhwhwhhw. ^^V hurted though. wkwk.

huff. dunno what to do. happy,upset,depressed,or what? I'm confuse. 

I don't even know what to do with this thing nagging and hanging around in my heart. =="

Someday

Someday you'll know what I call as friend. =]

Someday you'll know too what I think as friend, what I think as care,what I think as love.

I hope someday you'll know me, understand me, as I always try to do to you (all).

Someday.

Again. I'm grateful to know you..

What is it?

Maybe you'll read this one too. 

Maybe not. :/

Tonight I just want to share,seems like something's missing between us? what's it? *think think think

I don't get it.

Is it me or is it you or is it time?

Something went missing.

Hey,B.

Tonight's 13th January 2010. =]

Oh,you won't dare to imagine how hateful is the speedy this couple of days. *gondok*

I think I need to share something here,so my mind can't let go this blog these days. =="

I really wanna share 'bout another friend of mine. My friend is a he. Umm, after that so called retreat, I think I can handle not to get to close to him, well , maybe it's a good idea too, considering that someone's got jealous at sudden. However, I feel kinda weird, not having him nagging around. Like something's bothering me. I feel like I'm all alone again. huff. It's not like it's a big thing though. Maybe he's not too sensitive as a friend, things don't even bother him I think. =3="

I regret things also. No one stop by and text me like, "hey,'sup?" anymore. =] 

Something's missing,rite? =/

Still hoping the best for him though, wish that girl really do what she said. Not another lies and lies and lies. 

Hey,I'm doing a big task right now. Pray for me. =*

My first day of school and I'm blogging.

Let me introduce the new comers in my life. I think they will be such a good friend if I know them better. *no offense* >

Think about some people in my life who I never thought to be like this with them today. Quite funny how can I know such friends and people like them. heart you. =]

thanks alot to people for helping me.

Tadaaaa~ XDD

Mommy,2 gay infront of our home! XDD

Oh yah,I'm quite curious bout the one sending me a compliment through formspring...

I don't really think this blog affects people that much.

Glad if I can know you.

What's it?

I've taken tons of photos, but I still miss something.

Some brainwashing things

These're why I'm dying for ZARA~

ZARAZARAZARAZARAZARA

I want this.

I'm craving for ZaRas too~~

huhuhuhu.

Singapore~ Jakarta~ KL~

whatever,I want Zaras~~~ T_T

Start

Things that affect me now :

Not like usual, 22 QQ.

Lights.lights.lights. Kinda forget what has R taught me that day.

Mine?

Never know a monkey's sitting besides me. XDD

=]

Bad.I miss that day tonight...

How to forget? I can't.

Tomorrow's 2. 

Keep telling myself everything's gonna be fine. Should stop starring, I've been acting like an idiot these days, keep stalking my friend around.