Friday, December 31, 2010

Sorry and thankyou =D

Hi.... Its 31st now.
The last day of 2010,lots of things had happened in this year.... =)
Lots of meaningful things that I want them to be everlasting.
I met lots of new people, I knew parts of them which I never knew before. Thanks, people, you let me know you at least just a dot from who you are.
Maybe I've done too many foolish things, like now, I actually have tons things to do,but I'm sure I have done nothing till now. =="
Mood will always just be mood. Should move on. Time's ticking n I'm far away behind those people. ><

I'm pretty sure I've wasted some of my quality time to be with my friends,when will I realize that something like this sure can make a big REGRET HOLE next year? haha. I can't even dream about days without high school,it's happening within these months. ><
No more teachers,no more my school,no more scolding,no more uniforms,no more break time,no more friends like I have had,no more me like this,no more you guys,my friends. TT
You know, it's kinda hard to admit that every single meeting will end with a seperation....It's just a matter of time and how fast will we have it.

Well,I want to say sorry to all of you, to ones who're hurt by me,to ones who're annoyed by me,to ones who're lied by me,to ones who don't like me at all....
at least give me a second to thanked you, for you have let me be one of those people that ever live in your life.
I'm greatful.... =]

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I pass today

my theme for today : uring-uringan

Gonna post this one in Bahasa.
Umm,sbnrnya ngga gitu asyik sih nulis dalam bhsa indo, memank dasar gwnya orang indo dodol yang nulis aja ngerasa ga sreg pke bhsa Indo =="
Hmm....kinda uring-uringan hri ini.I mean WHOLE DAY.
Yang lucu ga berhasil bikin ktwa.Yg menyedihkan juga ga berhasil bikin gw nangis. 
so random..
Umm,one of my friend td tweet,katanya dy ngilangin text yg uda dy ketik buat bls k gw~ =3=
Ck,sebel juga sih bisa hilang,pdhl uda pengen bca ap sih yg bikin dy cape2 ktik sepanjang itu...ntr dy ngetik ulang psti uda beda jaoh isinya sama yang pertama.Moga-moga isinya sih tetep penuh cinta kyk yg dy tweet. wakakakakakakaka. XDDDD
I just love being a friend of him, =] kecil.kayak anak2. XDDDD (hope this one could be invisible when he read my blog wkwkakakaka!)
Moga-moga besok bisa berjalan lancarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Ga ada yang aneh-aneh ato stuck d tgah jalan.

Wonder when ini barang bru di ingat sama yang punya,oh iya,gw taro mana ya tu barang? Ga lucu kalo ilang! Bukan punya gua! *cham lo cham lo~~~ 

Monday, December 27, 2010

Today or not.

I'll let it be tonight.
if today's not my fate, then I'll let it be the 2nd month.
I spend today by hanging out with some of my friends, not a really special occasion, but yeah...quite fun.
Still kinda left something behind.can't really enjoy the ticking time.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas

Noon,25th December 2010.
Merry Christmas,my friends......

Umm,i don't know why am I start typing and writing here again now. =="
Am I just passing by to say,"Hey,I think I find out an answer" ?
I'm getting crazier day by day.
This holiday is way to boring.
No one's home. 
I'm all alone.
Like I used to be.
Should I call this a christmas? I don't think so.


Everything won't flow as before.
I think it won't back to that time. 
Time's ticking, leave me alone again.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Another Night

Hey,finally typing again tonight.
In the night before christmas,in the night surrounded by fireworks and traffic jams.
I hardly type this,tonight seems to be another night for me. It's not a christmas eve.Think 'bout it again, seems like it's getting harder to find christmas in every 'another christmas'. I want that christmas back, when I woke up in the morning with tons of wishes and hope,tons of curiosity and joy. I do miss that kind of 25th December I had.With my family here with me. Not like tonight. all alone. watching a K-drama from my compie and enjoying a glass of A&W alone.
maybe I'm a fool who keep waiting for things to be different.

I barely forget to tell you about last night. A night of 23rd December 2010,the day my friend turned 18th and the day I finally know what I'm missing these years. I miss her,my friends,and all that joy I used to have. I finally realize it again that no matter how hard I try,it'll always something different between them.

I had a sleepover party too yesterday. Questers came to my house and played silly truth or dare. I find myself missing something that nite. I don't know how to describe it. 
You know,that thing I'm trying to forget about. It's getting harder and harder to do,i mean,to completely wash out everything in my mind. I couldn't bare it,when some things successfully make me forget my intension to be a normal person again for that person. (I'm kinda rude by saying "that person",like he's done something wrong to me. ==") I'm searching for a right time to talk. For that I'm waiting almost every night. Just hope that person will finally realize.

Umm,maybe I'll write a little confession here. 
B, I'm kinda dissapointed too when one said that that person already get used to this condition.
If it's so, I won't regret anything again.
maybe It's better like this? haha. =]

It's really hard to push my intention to start talking while there are things which make me unwilling to do it.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

aS sOON aS pOSSIBLE

B.....
Find something or someone to cure me.ASAP.
I hate to be like this.
There's time when I start to think to end it,and there's also time like now when I want to continue being like this. 
wtf.
I hate to be confuse.
ASAP!!!!!!
><

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Some pictures..




 

I do feel alone too. X(

Wine


Is it true ?
I wonder.
Looks like this blog is really like me.alone.writing.taliking.to.me.myself.nobody.else.
I miss my friends.
I fed up easily today.
Keep thinking.
Are they those people that I suppose to call friends?
I doubt. ><

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Sometimes i think i need to type here, but when this cursor move and i know i need to type words. My brain goes blank and I suddenly don't know how to describe my feelings,I dont know how to type it well to tell you,B...
How to say this?
Now I think that some people get to know me for their own purposes.... 
Maybe I'm blind. Am I that pesimistic? ><
Maybe I don't know how to trust others,do I?
Maybe I don't know how to believe.
Teach me.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Red

Hai.... =]
Tonight I spend my time typing on a red laptop which's my aunt's,chatting with a friend of mine who's having his problem (the same virus as ours,B ==" ) and telling story too to all of you who r reading this thing.
I got a text from the one who can't be typed here yesterday. A little bit surprised i suppose. And i finally end it with a really TOO THE POINT reply. ==" Regret it ofcourse. I haven't open my first letter from the one who can't be typed yet,dunno what to do with that letter. I even bring it with me to Singapore. Silly. =="
Maybe I'm that type of person who refuse to face what i need to face. ><

I can't think right now. Too much too think about.
I'm not really happy to go here,like I left something back at my hometown. 0,o

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Morning

Morning. It's 15th December 2010.
I wish today could be the day i let my body rest. Too scared that it still won't let problems go away from my mind and won't stop thinking. =="
I really hope I'll find my answer in these 5 days. ><

There's 1 from the entire 25 which i haven't really open.
It's the one that get the rank of my first letter in my list. -_-

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Another caption

Will never mind me.
I'm going to have another 5 days full without seeing you and all of my friends. (maybe)
See you on concert.
Wondering, how will my body react for the complete 5 days and in the night of 21st?

Sunday, December 12, 2010

What to type?

=]
Hai.
First picture,make me think though.



I love last one. It rains...

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Fox Rain

Again.I don't know what to do.
What should I do?
I don't know what's the best way to do things right.
I guess I'm not trying my best,am I?
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I wanna jump.I wanna scream.I wanna smile like i used to.I want dance. Many things I want to do.like  I used to. But I guess time won't let me do it,right? 
..........
Just let me be the villain.
I'm getting used to it.
내 아픔이 무뎌져 버릴 날이
언제쯤 내게 오긴 할까요
한심스럽고 바보 같은 날
어떡해 하란 말인가요
(Fox Rain - Lee Sun Hee)
The day when my pain fades away,
will that day ever come?
Being so pitiful and silly,
What can I do after all? 
(Fox Rain - Lee Sun Hee)

Friday, December 10, 2010

IS YOU

Letters to Clarence
Hey,B! 
I read all the letters last night. 
Till 2 a.m. 
Send my thanks to all of my friends,they have tried to get to know me well.
Thanks too to one who try to tell me things i don't know before or things that i don't even catch up for. I appreciate it though. =]
And to one of my friend, let's call him 'T'. =D 
Your writing's fine, I love to read yours,realistic,not too over react and fun to know what do you feel at the moment you wrote those letters. I just want to read more about you,maybe i hope too high that i'll get more than a piece of paper? ahahahahahha XPPP
I don't know why i kindda miss some names when i wrote the letters? I forgot to write to some of my friends. aih =="
O ya,Christmas is coming soon.... =]
So true~ XDDD





Tuesday, December 7, 2010

The day after tomorrow. What day will it be?

Hey,B.
I think we'll meet again after I get my letters.
We decided to send the letters to the mentioned people the day after tomorrow.
The last horrible day from the entire exam weeks. =P

I'll soon read the letter. Umm,what will i tell you after I read those letters,B?
I'm wondering...

O! I forget to tell you, these holidays really makes me sick of my daily stuff. thanks God I heard a good news yesterday. X]
Even Rapunzel can't bring back my mood. wew =="
Umm,what day is today? I don't count anymore.
Hey,I'm planning to count every single letter i get. Read it and count + mention the writers' names.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Step aside.






Hey, feeling, step aside please.I want to move on and I NEED to move on.


Black one for today.

Me today


I hurt myself in every single breath I take

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

First of December

Hey,B~
typing in the office this time.
Me n friends had a BIMBEL day today =]
Quite nice.
O! my left eye can't stop kedut2-ing you know~ =="
zzzzz. It's not that annoying,but i never experience something like this one. Huff.

Umm,I'll have my Biology exam tomorrow,wish me luck! =3
Ey,tonight's 00:00 will officially be the-a-month.
Struggled enough,haven't I?

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I'll leave it to 30

It's officially a month in Singapore time, a month and 3 hours in Melboune time. And another 1 hour to go in Medan time.
A month it will be and no more count for me. 

     11. 23 pm     
        still 29        

Sunday, November 28, 2010

My eyes!

Need to be strong for another 1 hour,my eyes!!!!
Pass 00:00 and i'll let you rest!
please~~~ X(

Days which I haven't tell my blog yet. XP

This one actually is my Saturday morning post :
=PPP

OmG,who's missing me this morning? I'm sneezing like .....5 in a row? =="
Another gloomy morning for this weekend.=]
I love this weather,a perfect one to start my day..haha.
I'm so in the mood to spend some time with you this morning,B.

So,here are some pictures :

 Boris' house! =]

 Quest XD

 Vito, Spongebob and me!

 Hello! Let me introduce Uncle Randy!

After Chamber's concert~ =3

Lyric.

슬픔이 점점 아픔으로
아픔이 다시 조금씩 외로움으로
니 모든 걸 바쳐도 그게 모자랄 때
비틀 거려 뭔가 잡을게 필요할 때 생각해


'Cuz I'm your friend forever.
Don't forget.
 
(Friends by Rain ; 4th album)

Friday, November 26, 2010

Another summer day has come and go away.

Tomorrow's Saturday,Sunday and another week will come again.
Really think I need something new in my life. I can't find out what it is though.
Today's not bad,B. I spent this gloomy day with a pretty well done test and some stupid advice for my friend, Mingpha, today.
and another "lu si cumiq su sih?" for today too. hahahahhaa.

Really going to end it all like this.pretty cold ei? 
Just hope I won't regret it this way. I sometimes too feel like I'm one of those silly lebhay creatures (exp. girls) , B. I don't want to be one.
So,my decission today : no more counting soon if it reaches 30 and just a cold ending will be good.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

The count

I should stop counting soon.
As soon as I can, i'll stop my count.
When everything will just be like this and everything is called regret, i will stop counting.

Everytime I come to that moment,myself will again refuse to be the me i used to be. =="
Funny,huh?
Everytime I come to that moment,myself will tell my 마음 to let things flow like these days.
It says," It won't change anymore."
I'm exhausted. really. keep telling myself to be strong is the hardest of all.

Btw, i had a great exam today,I'm spending my time now not studying tomorrow's subject. =="

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Stupid.

Haiiizzzzzzzzzz.
I've had a really bad day today,B. =="
Stupid test and stupid me.
Another stupid test and stupid me AGAIN for tomorrow. 

30minutes to 24th.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

what should i do what should i do what should i do what should i do

Maybe i just need to erase all, needn't I?
I don't know what to do~~~~ ><
B,i never know to do this stuff is harder than ever.

Tests are coming and i still the same.
Going to face bad bad bad marks i think~
TT

Going through 23rd.

What kind of girl do things like I did,right?

Kata-kata itu masih berbekas di otakku.
Rasanya baru kali ini aku menyakiti orang lain sedalam itu.
Bahkan diriku tidak tahu harus berbuat apa, membuat orang lain sebegitu susahnya karena aku.

I never saw him like that.
like that night.
As long as i recall,being his friend never makes me saw that part of him. Still,his words really stucked deep in here.
I never saw him that mad. like that night.
I never mean to lie.

I never think by deleting him will be the best way to end all of it.I never think by doing what i did will end all of it. 
I just don't understand why i keep doing things like stop talking,stop everything i used to do. Stop laughing from my heart is one of them. =="
It really sucks.
This one is the best way to celebrate the 22nd i think.
I now know,writing is the other way to substitute anger n sadness.

Like you said,what kind of girl do things like I did. Maybe you are right. 
I'm not a really good friend, am I ? =]

TT really means TT. I never lie about it.
Hey,you really hurts people when you talked like that one. 
We are hurting each other,aren't we? hhhhhhhhhhh.

I'm nuts.
I'll stay in purple.Darkest one. 
Will it be black? worst.

Monday, November 22, 2010

=P

People,i really think I am mad right now.
hahahahahaha
Even tears won't accompany me anymore. 
Tears has bored seeing me like this.
=PPP

"Seeing you is a tear" , like you said.

When I thought it was all over,it's getting worse...
The worst one i've ever done,B.
I typed "I hate you"
Yes,it is me who is typing.
And that pinch comes again.

I don't know why,i don't have any will to talk to you.
Even to get into your car will make me think twice.not like before.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

=] Morning Sunday!

B,Nickhun wore the same glasses like we have! XDDDD
Ei,look at Victoria,as i see and see and see and see,she looks like one of my friend + make up , doesn't she?

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Hmppphfffffff

Hmmph.
Think and think and think.
Maybe you're right,Rand... =]

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Just a day

I went to Synergy today,B. 
=]
At least I have some clues about the university now~
My body's still aching.= ="
I skip school today, I think better like this. 
I skip today's 'pinch' by not going to school...

Begitulah.

Orang berpikir itu mudah untuk sekedar mengabaikan apa yang mengganjal dalam hati.
Tidak semudah itu,kawan2~ =]
That's why life's hard.


P.S. My body's aching this morning,B! 
aaargh~ serasa bru siap lomba nari aja...pdhal kmrin g ngapa2in pun~ =="

Just stop

Stop reading these things if it hurts you. 
Really,i mean it.
I just need a place,at least writing to you.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

...............another one

Again.
I want to cry right now.
Help me..

Empty

Pretty tired today,B~
Umm..too tired i mean. huufffff.
I dunno how to describe today,B.
It's too empty~~~ ='(
17th Nov 2010, an empty day for me.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Just Once

Nite,B~
I've been through a very hard day today. Damn tired, I wonder how's my friends who work at school till an hour ago .
T T
Sorry I cant help you much......=(
We will finally have our Logo Ceremony tomorrow~ Please let He bless us so that our performances' smooth n nothing's wrong,B...
Let me have a fun day tomorow, with all of my friends.
Don't let me regret a day without him or them,B....
I want all of them in my bestie memories~
It's only once in my lifetime... X((((
Let me be a strong one tomorrow! X((

Gloomy

Morning,B..
Another gloomy day He gives us,rite?
Tomorrow's 17th Nov 2010.The day has finally come! hahaha.
Hope we'll do our best tomorrow..
I'm going to school and have another busy day after this post.Wish I can do the best today....
Accompany me to do all those jobs,B,so that I won't be alone like any other days. 

Still blue,
C

Monday, November 15, 2010

Trying

          Bukan karena aku ini ingin berbuat seperti ini.Bukan karena aku sanggup maka aku berbuat seperti ini. Bukan karena aku benci sama kamu baru aku berbuat seperti ini. Bukan. Bukan. Bukan. Bukan. Bukan. Bukan.
Aku tahu, kamu akan bertanya,"Lalu, mengapa? Jika memang ini menyakitkan juga bagimu, kenapa kamu lakukan?"
"..."
         Aku tidak bisa mengeluarkannya dari mulutku, karena diriku juga tidak paham yang sebenarnya dirasakan batinku. Jujur,selalu ada sesuatu jika aku melihatmu. T T
Aku tidak tahu apa itu. Selalu memicu aku untuk kembali menangis. Menangisi diriku. Itu menyakitkan, menyedihkan. Aku tahu, tidak seharusnya aku melakukan sesuatu seperti ini kepada seseorang seperti dirimu. Kamu sudah banyak membantuku. Aku tahu,kamu selalu ingin tahu apa itu.

          Aku hanya bisa mengetikkan rasa yang aku rasakan. Aku sendiri tidak mengerti bagaimana setiap tindakanmu bisa membuatku seperti ini? T T
Seperti ada suatu cubitan dalam diriku. T T
Maaf jika aku menyusahkanmu. Maaf jika memang aku merusak hari-harimu. Bukan hanya dirimu yang merasakan susahnya seperti ini. Aku juga. Aku juga merasakan yang namanya kehilangan rumah untuk berbicara setiap aku memiliki kesusahan.

          Bukan mudah untuk tidak menegurmu setiap aku melihatmu, mendegar suaramu, apalagi membaca gerak gerikmu.Tapi selalu saja ada yang menghalangiku. Bukan mudah untuk mecari rumah baru pendengar cerita-ceritaku.

          Umm, mungkin saat itu aku mulai berpikir, aku harus menjadi sesuatu yang lebih baik lagi. Mungkin sejak itu aku merasakan sesuatu seperti ini. Aku tidak tahu mengapa setiap kamu berusaha berbicara denganku saja bisa membuatku menangis, belum lagi jika kamu mulai merasa tertekan karena aku. Itu terlebih lagi sangat menyiksaku. Aku sendiri tidak mengerti sejak kapan kamu mulai menjauh dariku. Aku tidak tahu mengapa setiap hal yang kamu perbuat dapat menyebabkan aku seperti ini. Mungkin sampai aku bisa melepaskan rasa seperti ini,aku baru dapat kembali ke diriku yang sebelumnya.
Bukan aku tidak mau,aku juga sedang berusaha.. T T

Ini bukan mudah, ini menyakitkan.

Smoga kamu membaca tulisanku ini......
C

Friday, November 12, 2010

Blue

B,I don't know where to start.
When to stop.
It feels like only this blog accompany me.
T_T
Can you make me stop dropping this tears?
Just 1 day. 
At least 1 from this entire week. 
It's so hard for me to get up and go to school.
I have my exam tomorrow,i don't feel any exam right now. Where's my feeling?
Is she there with you? 
Huff....

I just wish i could talk.

Today's blue.
Only blue.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

...



=(
I shed tears again.
This one can't stop.
Stop it.

A Chat will do?

Huuffff....... i wrote a lot this month,werent I? hhhhhh. 
Don't laugh at me,B. It's called sick. =(
I really want my life back. I really do. It's just..... 
How to tell you? 
It's not like I'm not willing to talk to you as usual because I'm happy to do it.
It's not funny,i know. 
Umm,i don't know the best way to tell you. 
tell me if you read this,a chat will help,___ .....
 The interesting part that now i know how's the way you treat people you dont really know / doesn't know you so well....


 MU =|
-C-

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Hurted Longer

I need to be a person who can control myself.
IneednImust!
Do I have to sleep with this feeling.not comfortable.even i'm sleepy ?
For the rest of my High school?????
If it's the best way for me not to hurt _ any further,i choose to hurted longer.
Until it's all done.

Monday, November 8, 2010

What about you?

Don't you think we
need to talk?
I Do

Sunday, November 7, 2010

It's not you.

30 minutes feels like tearing _ again n again,B.
Is it my fault to do something like this?
Please tell _ it's not _ fault.It's just me....
Please dont let _ hurt _self again n again.
It's hard to see every single words _ said.
It's pain.

I'm still me,it's only a different package.
It's not like it doesn't hurt me at all.
FIY,B,I'm still a mortal too.
I know what's pain.what's hurt.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

No more..

I think,
that call? will soon fade.
that attention? will soon be none.
that care? will be no more.
that talk? will be once in our lifetime?

I don't know. Maybe until I can change myself to be a better one.
at least for myself.

It's hard

It's not funny,keep monitoring WMessenger's page just to see r u popping out on my friend online list or not.
It's not easy to keep thinking you you and you all day.
It's not easy keep seeing you wherever i keep my eyes focus at.
It's not easy for me every time you appear in my desktop with a little green symbol besides your PP.
It's not easy to look at you.
It's not easy to talk with you.
It's not easy to see you as the way i used to.
Please throw away this pinch.i hate it.
Just turn me back to normal.

T_T
C @the2nd day.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Right into ....

Here it comes,a pinch right into my heart.
have you ever feel the same thing before?
I hate this feeling. Like i'm reading a novel,yes,just like that. 
When that sad page comes right infront of my eyes. 
So what's the difference? 
Well, if it's a novel, it'll just be a story. 
When it's you,it'll be my story.

It comes again

Can you give me an answer?
I hate the feeling like this one. I cant do things i should have done these days.
It's not like this is my first time to come to the end like this, i just hate it everytime it comes to me.
Pain.
I hate it.
Go away.
Cant I just be me the way i used to?
Ugh~

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

I'm not so me

Huff.it's now 11.30.
.noon.
Heading to school in half an hour i guess.
Staring at this book.
A stuff that must be burnt i think,things like these make me suffer while others r trying to pursue their dreams.
Okay.stop complaining.
Have to do another research and go for it.
Pray for me,Guys! 
Do me a favor.
Please find place which provides EO management major please? =(
Dying! *aaargggghhh!*

havent finish my letters yet.
I wrote a letter to __ . But i really forget what i wrote. Gonna have to read it again.
So damn fool . =.="

C

Monday, October 25, 2010

I'll Miss You

Hai,B~ =3
Again n again so sorry that u v to b a victim of a -not so lifeless- person like me,not updating her life,even its also exciting sumtime..
I read someone's blog this morning.About college n bla bla bla.I decided to write again after that. I kinda emo these days,B.dunno why.I should tell you how's life these couple of weeks.Full of stupid things like logo,dances,choreo,headache and last but not least,it's all about friends. One of them's not willing to talk to me for almost 2 weeks you know,well,1 week 2-3 days. I know its not that BIG problem, but somehow i hv that strange feeling if i stop talking to one of them.A part of my life is missing for whole week.hhh. 
He started talking to me again yesterday,really TALKING i mean,not only calling my name for about 2 seconds n then =X *silent mode comes* I dunno what should i do after that,it's kinda weird to face him after that. The funniest part was when i yelled a person next to me,it appears that the one i yelled to was him.Argggh~ I really regret it that time,hhhh,the first thing popped out in my mind was 
"Shit,he'll absolutely stop talking to me again for the next 1 week!"

I hope that he wont talking to me only for the sake of my class.Only for dance n choreo.

Now,move to K.
I was kinda shock.Not 'kinda',just erase it. 
I'm shocked (coz still shock) when i knew that K plans to hv his major @Sydney. I never imagine that far.Well,for him. =P
When i think n think n think think think think.This one really wakes me up that i ve a really limited time to spare with all my friends,and it also tells me that i hv REALLY LIMITED TIME to choose my major. GEEEJUZZZ~~~ pweaseieeeeeee~~~ T^T Help meh!

I wrote the letter for him starts from yesterday nite.Wondering how will i face my day without K and others. Really hope that it'll go smooth,nothing hard. *huff.

Last for today before i take my bath n go to BeeS, a message for K,tell him if you read this blog. Or if you read this,K,this is a message for you,maybe i will write it in our letter,but mybe not oso. =P

"Dear,K.thankiu for being my friend.Hhhhhh. I should say that i'll miss the freak u,the -i dun know but well i'll try- u,the way you want to entertain people as long as they'll be happy,the way you accompany ur friends although u r not that GOOD in the things you do. Maybe i know you for only 2-3 years,but i 'm willing to know you more.If u really go for ur major @Sydney,dun forget me (classic) Maybe u'll forget,just dun ever act like u never know me. Last one.Remember.Just be you. I'll be grateful if you done this one in ur life. =3  I'll miss you SURE! =D "

Okay.time to shut down the lappie. It's 9:30 know and they will sure wait for me @Bees...

Love you all.
The sky's so emo this morning.Will my heart too? XD
-Change my name-
C~

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Getting excited

Aooo,B!
=D
Time passes too fast am i right?
            Tonight i decide to post some photos 'bout my class' journey.to Tjong A Fie's house,Balai kota and many more.Feel so bad that i cant join my lastceremony @school TTTT____TTTT but i had superb rainy day last 17th August.kekekekeke... We introduced Medan lao ia places to Kuan Yu,it's our way to call the Taiwanese girl who i tell you last post.
            You know what? I get so excited to post something on my blog when i know 'Hey,i have a reader at least' wkwkwkwk. Hey,you all readers,enjoy my blog because there are some BEAUTIFUL VIEW of Medan after this.=P
Btw,i made a new blog/website from www.weebly.com ,but i think i have to redecorate it.
>>>> mine : alovetokill.weebly.com =]
maybe i'll post thing through there now,sorry,B~ =/
but i feel it's better there.=3

So here they are.some photos. =]
Wenny.Frendy.Kuan Yu ! XDD
Toti's seventeen,guys!
The hatefullllll bio's assignment things! X'(
Dua lelaki. Satu single satu tak single.Di pili di pili!

The Heritage!
Tjong A Fie's
F4 kah? kurasa tidak. XDD
Bunch of Keong Racun here! wkwkwkwkwkwk!!!!

photos taken by The Clarence. (bangganyahhhh~ lol)

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Hai.Hai.A short story of mine =3

Hey,B!!!
Wonder why i miss u tonite.suddenly! =3
It rained hardly today. Half of this day was filled with pouring rain....We collected our short story today,i made mine couple days ago.I thought i'm insane,i'm addicted with those stories.i wanna make another one again. XDD

i named mine 'Kelima Senarku',one of its roles has my friend's character.too much in common that all my friends who read it will know which role that he got.kekekekkee.There was also a short story which made by Tommy,it's such a great story i think,so original,=3 He named it "Malammu Malamku Juga" so awwwwww! eye catching,ear catching .i'm so interested with that one.kekekke

Some of them got silly names and stories too,like Pulang Kampung,Pengembara Cinta,BALADA SORE HARI,Sepatu Ajaib,Hujan,Waktu Ini Membunuhku and many else! hahahha.

Tonight we spent some fun chatting with a Taiwanese girl.hahahaha.so funny when i remember how did Randy try to write mandarin.hahaha.With aming's skill,we all try to communicate with her.so silly! XDDD

O yeah,my class got a new classmate yesterday,a Taiwanese girl,pretty.Her voice really remind me to Tien,my friend who is in Singapore,persuing for her future =D
B,what's crush and love?
its difference is just too thin you know that i dont know this is a crush or to fall deep in it.
I always think things like this are crush.Its feeling is always weird.
Too awkward,i have to work my things out hardly.i dont really like feeling like this.

.haiz.

If it's not that, just sweep it away from me~
Too much in this heart will give me a heart attack sooner.
....kekekeke....
the last one has come out as crush so~ 
i think this one too........=,="

Oh,yesh2,please tell Daddy God that i dont want one of my friend go further from me,our 'distance' i mean. i hate when he treat all his friends like he treat me.i come to realize that i'm 'that's all.i'm done with you' 
wew
i've ever tried not to think like that about him,people used to talk about him that way.He's my friend so i tried not to think he will do such things,but he do it to me also.haiyah~ so dissapointed!