Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Another Rand-o-my

Just wanted to post random photos yet it stucks here =)
Guess I'll spend this year's in tears again. That's fine, at least I realize some things...

Just thought this' nice =3




but you aren't here,are you? hha








yup,just incase. But I guess you won't?
=]

Monday, September 26, 2011

Heartstrings X'3

daram daram daramm~
I'm in love again with him! =D
Maybe some of you know who he is X'3





Saturday, September 24, 2011

I'm no one.

hey,B...
it's Saturday and tomorrow will be my last term's holiday =( so sad... i've had 2 days fun including today, it's always great to spend my time to explore this place with some of my friends.. we went to watch Johnny English yesterday, wanted to visit Merlion + Esplanade but ended hanging out at Bucks in Marina Square... and today I started my day at noon, had lunch with friends, splited up and I went to Bugis to meet the other 2, had some great + fun photoshoot + afternoon soyamilk + burger king, we also meet another 1, four of us then went to the Merlion,and ended the trip by having dinner at Ion foodhall,we had some fun chit chatting,gossiping and some silly jokes included in it. =)
It's fun.

umm,it's been days without any news, I guess I have to be strong and continue it this way? =)
Must get used to this. I'm no one afterall, it's not my right to know everything you do. =)
Anyway, how are you? Fine? These days are not too good for me, this place has been a very cold and silent place...

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

fiuh....
FINALLY WENT THROUGH SUBMISSIONS!
I didn't sleep at all the night before yesterday, 8am-not even showered-went to school with whatever clothes I saw on my first glance (thanks God it's not my pajamas) reached home at noon, ate instant noodle,took a shower,ZZZZZZ slept till 9pm. what a Monday. =="
woke up,had my dinner and went to bed again at 12-1am.
It's raining all day today, I had my eye and wallet vacation this day long >< started at noon and finish it at night. Spent about 100 bucks for clothes,accessories and shoes. They're such guilty pleasures. I do this often, especially when stress is on the top of my brain list.
I took a snap of me wearing F21 -dress+Rusty blazer- and someone's not so happy about it, he's talking about me getting thinner in really unappropriate way , he's the only one complining about me losing weight , others are just too happy to see I lose a couple of number. But I guess we have lost some time talking silly things about what've happened this whole day,am I not right? I'm just too busy, and you're just too tired and sleepy. sigh. And when I'm here waiting and spending some moments just to wait for you to have some time, you simply don't have it. being like this won't last till December, you know. Where are all that talks bout sharing only when nights come will just be fine and enough? hh. I don't think so. =)

I want this tee so bad ='(((( Can anyone find it for me. I spent bucks just to find the right size for me to wear today, yet I couldn't have it. huhuhuhuhuhuhu. so sad. X'(

Friday, September 16, 2011

Hi,there..

Hello,Guys...
Long time no post.
Since I can hardly 'breathe' these weeks, I've to hold my will to type and post stuffs here. Yesterday was my fifth day sleeping at 5am and only slept for 4-5 hours. I know if I keep on doing this, I've shorten my age. =="
Last submissions for this term is on Monday, I believe I've been on pressure for looooooooong time. >< I can't help myself but thrown myself to shopping today, I spent S$50 on Charles&Keith and a vintage bag. Quite nice,ei? S$20 for a pair of Charles&Keith is really a best buy,isn't it? hehehe. I've had this massive headache since this morning, When I look around, I feel like I'm still in my dream, every single thing I did was just so bluuuurrrr~ ><
And I'm feeling so sick right now, but I still have works to be done. huhuhuhu. Help me,any body~ ><
It's a quarter past 12 already,and it means it's Saturday... Monday is really coming soon,don't you think so? I'm so dead. really. I really want to scream as loud as I can, I wanna cry, something inside this really wanna jump out in tears, I just can't... =S I wonder why? =S I really need dance life back, everytime I listen to those musics and rythm,I missed my crews. HUHUHU
Hi,there UKDC,how are you? ='(
I really wanna hugs some of my fellas out there right now, I still have to hold on till December to do it *sigh*
I miss performing and dancing with those bass rythm,andrenaline,fun,shouts,spotlights,tiredness,skipping heartbeat,nervous,fun,laughter, and mostly I miss those people who did those things with me... =(((
I want that so badly that everytime I recall it,I feel devastated... *big sigh sigh sighhhh*
To be this busy really doesn't help me in recovering my mood,you know, since those sleepless nights. *UGH!
I wonder since when I went to bed on 12-1 am that makes me can't survive staying till 5am. =S I used to do it and have no problem doing it. Is this what we call 'YOU ARE OLDER' ? X'S

Anyway,this are some MV, I found it's really shooting my craves...
You can find Quest Crew in one of these MVs.




hey =3
a hug with a note 'nite' mostly everynight before bed really makes me wanna hug you, don't you ever think about it? hhh. I hope you have fun in college...

Night.... *another sleepless night is waiting* T^T

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

So...

Then what should I do?
I don't know where we stand.
I don't know what we are.
I'm asking 'us' to stop it.
Yet you'll always be the one who couldn't bare with it.
So what am I supposed to do?
It isn't wrong to be close to each other.
It's NOT that I couldn't find myself enjoy it.
I know everything will just be fine.
For it I'm scared.
Afraid to be dragged too deep inside 'us'.
Before it comes to whatever other thing it could be, I wanna stop it.
I'm asking whether it's fine for 'us' to stop it.
To stop to miss, to stop to call each other this and that way, to stop to worry on either you or me.
I'm not a good person.
I'm also a human who could crave more one day.
So, before it comes to that point, couldn't we just stop?
It is not like this will be so hard for you to do.
I find yourself pretty much fine without all those stuffs, so why should we keep on doing it?
If you ask me why, I'll still answer it "Nothing,I'm fine", but aren't you scared if.. just if all of this will end into nothing?
Even someone else could state it's not normal to be this close.
That's why I'm asking, so how?
Yet I think we tried thrice and still you are the one who seek for it thrice.
So what should I do?
How should I step through it?
I know I can be changed by anybody.
It's not like you just need me to be one.
That's why I'm asking.
You're the one who said, if this person you've trusted has gone, maybe you'll just find another one.
So, I suggest, just let that other persons replace me. =)
I enjoy this too much that I'm scared.
Before I become a beast, I've warned and asked you.
Thrice and we still come back to this path.
So I guess I'll play this game with you 'till the end.
'till there's no more left,things changed and we're no longer be 'us'
Yes?
Do that sounds okay?
=)

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Stress Post. HA HA.

Gonna stay strong.
Yes. I definitely MUST.
or else I'm gonna dragged to the creepiest part of schooling. *sigh*

I miss stuffs, miss spoiled, miss laugh, miss you, you, you, you, you, you, you. see, if I have to type you again,then this post will be overloaded by the word you. There are so many things I miss, but I'm pretty much sure that this thing will be paid somewhat later.

enjoy.
I've tuned this for months, and I find it good..

Hi,how are you? =)

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Friday, September 2, 2011

Have Faith

Hi,there...
Sorry for not posting for days, things are quite hectic. My cousins were here last Friday and they went back home yesterday, so.... i spent whole days from Monday-Wednesday with them. We went to some places,USS was one of them. I'm thinking about going there with other companion in the end of this year... but it won't come true unless they are really going to visit me here on December.
I spent last night doing my stuffs,accompanied by bb+twitter+thewindyAC.==" felt horrible, I slept at 5am and woke up at 8am this morning, had a class at 11am..... I really think this things are getting sucker and suckerrrrrrrr. Yet, Daddy gave a surprise after my classes, my friends visited me at college, so we went to watch SMURF after that. Have some fun with them hours ago. Thanks,Dad. =))

I can't believe it's Friday night, it means it's been a week since I went back home. And I only have 2 days left for my textile class....can you feel how frustated I am? *sigh* now i'm really thinking I took a wrong decision, plus lack of courage. T^T Should I really go back home and continue PIA? hahahahaha. It's really out of my list. XD

I'm trying to fix lots of stuffs happening around me. Especially people. I can't separate things clearly, that's why i do this. Avoiding things, make sure that I don't feel anything. Because I've had enough. =]
Because I'm greedy, because I'm actually not a good person, yet I'm a very self-centred for certain things. So,please forgive me... for those who I've hurted for long... or are suffering because of me... Maybe in the end, it only benefits me. =|



silly stupid shrek


3am. doing stuffs. =="

XDDDDDD

Round and Round his face goes!

Opening today

Johnny English's version!

SMURF!


sihiiiy~ =>

USS








and last...





2nd September 2011.
Goodluck my dear friend.
We all know your dream is in your hand and will always be there.
=)
Have faith.