Can I?

This is the translation :  =]

Since the day you left without a word of goodbye
I feel that the scenery around me has changed.
The promise I made
that I would become your everything
and the incomplete memories
have also changed.

When you were crying by yourself back then,
if only had I run to you
you would still be by my side.
If I was given one more chance,
I would tell you once again
that I love you.
But the words that contain my overflowing feelings
cannot reach you anymore.

Where are you now?
Who are you being with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are doing and laughing at?
I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
And I still believe that we will see each other again.
You’re the only one I’m thinking of.

Just once more,
I want you to stand at my back with your tied hair
asking me “Guess who it is~~~”
and expecting me to say out your name.*
Just the two of us being silly like that day by day.

I can’t forget you,
But the truth is, I don’t want to forget you.
I can’t feel even a bit of happiness
because you’re not by my side.
No matter how hard I try,
I’ll end up crying
and my tears just won’t stop.

Where are you now?
Who are you being with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are doing and laughing at?
I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
I still believe that we will see each other again.
You’re the only one I’m thinking of.

Therefore, I am right here
singing the song by myself.
Even though I don’t have any reason to embrace this pain anymore,
I can’t help doing it.

Even if I know that the days
when you were by my side making my world shine
won’t come back again,
and no matter what will happen,
no matter how far I’m lost,
I never ever want to forget that my heart has chosen to love you.

No matter where you are,
no matter who you are being with,
no matter what kind of dream you are dreaming of,
or what you are doing and laughing at,
I will be here forever.
Even now, I right am here,
believing in a day that we will meet again.

This feeling won’t change,
and you are the only one I’m thinking of.
This feeling won’t change,
and you are the only one I’m thinking of.

Stand by U - TVXQ

Betrayer

Malam ini,sala seorg tmen gw uda berhasil bikin gw kembali berpikir, apa yang bakal aku rasain nanti. Saat aku uda ninggalin tempat yang aku huni selama lebih dari 10 tahun. Mungkin aku bakal berangkat bareng temen2, yah...yang bisa di bilang temen-temen aku selama beberapa tahun belakangan ini, tapi bukan berarti aku berjalan bersama temen-temen yang bener2 temen buat aku. 

Aku sadar. Semua orang itu nggak bakal bersisa satu pun bareng aku, buat nempuhin jalan tujuan aku. I'll be all by myself, walaupun di sekitar aku masih ada orang-orang yang juga gw sebut temen..... Aku tetep kehilangan orang-orang itu,yang uda berhasil ngetuk hati aku,yang uda berhasil nemuin kunci buat buka hati aku,ato pun yang uda berhasil say "Hello" sama apa yang ada di dalam diri aku, baik yang bakal staying di Medan, ato berkelana di Nusantara. =(

Sedih sih. Bukan sedih lagi. Menyedihkan. Rasanya aku harus timbun lagi 'trust' yang baru, adaptasi lagi, digging lagi, nyari temen yang bener2 temen dari segala jenis orang yang tercampur di tempat yang baru bagi aku. Gw ragu,apa gw masi bakal ketemu orang-orang yang seperti ini? Mungkin aku terlalu byk naruh effort buat mereka, selalu terasa begini menyedihkannya buat ninggalin orang-orang cute kayak mereka. hahahaha.

Tapi yang paling parah dari semua ini adalah, aku sadar bahwa di saat semua sedih ini mulai tertutup, aku kembali menjadi manusia yang ngejalanin hidupnya biasa-biasa aja, serasa jadi pengkhianat dalam hidup deh aku.... Di saat semua uda mulai bangkit, aku bakal sadar bahwa 'how funny I cried over my friends' tapi tetep aja mereka itu bahagia-nya aku, cuma di saat itu aku tahu, aku pasti uda ga tau gimana caranya supaya tetep deket kyk skrg ini. Itu lebih dari sekedar menyedihkan, dengan segudang rutinitas yang beda-beda,orang yang ditemuin juga beda-beda. Sakit banget kalo gw ingat,gw ini juga manusia yang bisa ngelupain pedihnya ninggalin temen-temen. Gw sedih akan diri gw sendiri. 

Gw sadar banget, kalau sebagai manusia, gw ini harus bisa bangkit. Tapi apa yang terkadang ga bisa aku terima adalah, kok bisa secepat itu aku bangkit? 

Seakan-akan aku mengkhianati semuanya.

HUHUHUHU

I'm having a very hate-able stomache right now! >< 

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has it been my turn?

"Iyaaaa

Gk aada yg mudah r

Cmnna psti bsa uw

Yha mgkn cmn dgn u hlg 1 tmn e....bru bsaaa

Kl gk,ma be klar mslhnaaa"

the first and only one suggestion that filled like this.

haha. maybe it's my turn to leave. X]

It doesn't heal, we are the one getting along with it.

Actually,I woke up yesterday morning, and something I realized that 'this whole day won't be repeated anymore'. Get what I mean,right? I absolutely WILL miss my 12th grade someday. I don't know when and how. No matter how hateful is these days, but still, it's one of the memorable moment in our life.I'm trying. Trying hard to keep my life normal, when I think people who usually surrounding me are stepping aside.Yes,one by one. till it's the time,there will be none of them surrounding me. If it's the best for them,then I think it's good for me too,isn't it? hehehehe. =P Sometimes, I wonder, is it me who's selfish? Am I a very stupid and childish person? Where did i do wrong then? I realized that I'm also a person who wants things for her life, and that's when I begin to reject it, I don't want to be that kind of person.I'm letting go things without any fight. It's good when it's great for others,I believe...

I know every starts has its ends.Every 'Hai/hello' has its 'Bye/Tha', but doesn't it comes too fast? I've just known you. Well, till today,  I can say I barely know anybody. At least,I'm getting to know who you are, and you all have started to leave me again. Alone. =]

Is this what life means? Life means you'll always survive in every single bye? So,how many suffer again after this one? I'm grateful  it comes faster than last one. I can't stand the hole process of being strong.

I do believe that me,you,we,and they, we aren't healed by time. Time doesn't heal anything, it's just us who are getting along with pain. Am I wrong?

I can't stand every single goodbye,every single miss,even every single meet. Because when it stop making holes, rebuild my heart, and tell me "you'll be fine.just get stronger" , I feel like I'm betraying myself. That pain won't move anywhere though. It's still there. Staring every moment in which it can shows itself.

I don't know.

Is there something wrong with me?

(不)知道

多的是你不知道的事...

Duō de shì nǐ bù zhīdào de shì

hmmmm. 

hmph.

 

 

Generations.Decades.

I will miss these generations somehow... =')

Definitely will miss something...

I'm so done

Done.Done.Done.

It's 20th now...bye!!! =DDD

haha.

oh iya! Lause,tHaNkYoU~

you've given your best to all of us this time. I'm so proud to have a 'hoi-hoi' one like you! X'3

*moga2 mau lha ni ank pien me e chincia~~ =333

Just gonna stand there and here me cry.

Have we?

Time is ticking. and it's moving. leaving all of us behind. it won't come back to the moment it has passed. 

So do us. Will never be that person we were. No matter how hard we try. 

My question is , have we tried the best 'til there's no way out from this?

Thankies!

O ya,I forgot this twin-ies of teddy yesterday. =]

At least, I know somebody remember me.. thankyou,my friend. =*

*ternyata tak pelit juga yu* XDD

=DDD

Kumawo----- =*

Thankyou for listening to me tonight. i have some great time with you guys,Tom,Rand and last lady who join,Jowi! =]

Hope we'll find the way to the end. Thanks too for you had share things. haha~ 

I never have some chit chat like that before,in the middle of the crowd. hihihihi. We'll have to go out somewhere else someday. ;P

Someone who's stupid enough to take a selca like this! nyahahaaha!!!!

=DDDDD

Love you,guys!!!!

The Hunter Night!

13th February 2011.

The night for the hunters. haha. should i say like that? hihi. =P

NK mcm penampakan lah! XDD

Too bad we didnt have some yoghurt that night, haha. at least 429's mango and some accesories ma ho? haha!

Won't forget how we laugh in the Yaris that night. damn funny. =DD

싫어 =p

To people I love =]

not going to join people's celebration for today. But i do wish the best for you guys in this V-day.. =]

Truely,i was thinking on baking some cookies for today,but since some guys came to my house yesterday for some REd-pao,so,I'll postpone cookies for somedays. hehe.

I've a great nite yesterday with some friends. Can't stop laughing. =P
 

Hugh and kisses then... =*

What do I get?

Like I know what has God gives to me since you've been gone.

Stupid is me.Moron is my nickname.

I know I'm the best moron among all.

I'm not proud of it. I can't stop cursing myself for being so.

Yet I can't stop myself for being that kind of person.

Why am I this stupid after all?

Is that so?

Found this one tonight.

Umm,I'm watching this person called Tukul on TV at this moment.

a Quote I get : "Do what you love,love what you do."

=]

I'm erasing you.are you happy? C=

Still.a must.

Give up.

never think this words will be this hard to be accomplished...

시월애

Wahaha~ never disappointed when I watch this movie...=]

I'm truly surprised when I know this one is a remake from a Korean movie..

Wah,korean movie's nice then. hihihi. =]

Lake House (2006)

Il Mare (2000)

May I?

I'm so tired for all of this. May I quit? ='(

True right?

"Sometimes, I hate myself for falling too deep.." captured from twitter by my darla,Tomy Endriko. =]

Damn true. Sickest thing ever,it's not like I choose for it,it's not like I choose you,it's not like I decide it's the right time. hmmph. Mess things up anyway.

Force me to get over it and it keeps hanging around here.inside.and i don't know what to do to get rid of you.

Yes,I am.

Whatever.

I HATE TO BE ANNOYING

And I know I am.

Can you understand me? I'm not guessing.I'm hoping.

What's so special for being great? for being cute? for being lovable? for being smart? for being respectful? for being admired? 

For me it means nothing when all I have with me is none. NO one cause I'm always all alone.

Happy Chinese New Year,guys.

I don't know why this THING comes every CNY,Birthday,Christmas,New Year and every other special occasions.

umm...why?

I don't know why I end up like this again.

It's 2nd february...=]