Actually,I woke up yesterday morning, and something I realized that 'this whole day won't be repeated anymore'. Get what I mean,right? I absolutely WILL miss my 12th grade someday. I don't know when and how. No matter how hateful is these days, but still, it's one of the memorable moment in our life.I'm trying. Trying hard to keep my life normal, when I think people who usually surrounding me are stepping aside.Yes,one by one. till it's the time,there will be none of them surrounding me. If it's the best for them,then I think it's good for me too,isn't it? hehehehe. =P Sometimes, I wonder, is it me who's selfish? Am I a very stupid and childish person? Where did i do wrong then? I realized that I'm also a person who wants things for her life, and that's when I begin to reject it, I don't want to be that kind of person.I'm letting go things without any fight. It's good when it's great for others,I believe...
I know every starts has its ends.Every 'Hai/hello' has its 'Bye/Tha', but doesn't it comes too fast? I've just known you. Well, till today, I can say I barely know anybody. At least,I'm getting to know who you are, and you all have started to leave me again. Alone. =]
Is this what life means? Life means you'll always survive in every single bye? So,how many suffer again after this one? I'm grateful it comes faster than last one. I can't stand the hole process of being strong.
I do believe that me,you,we,and they, we aren't healed by time. Time doesn't heal anything, it's just us who are getting along with pain. Am I wrong?
I can't stand every single goodbye,every single miss,even every single meet. Because when it stop making holes, rebuild my heart, and tell me "you'll be fine.just get stronger" , I feel like I'm betraying myself. That pain won't move anywhere though. It's still there. Staring every moment in which it can shows itself.
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