Strangers

is this happens to people?

pieces

Am I sick being like this?
How bout you?

........

Great one XD

Tonight is a damn great night =]
Full of funny and silly things bout 5 Quest,1Emperor,1Captains and 4 Scherzo.
I heart U all.
The night of 28th April 2011, I want to recon this nite as one of the best moments in High school.
And the night I admit that WINSEN THEJA has a very nice skill in a-chui *adu mulut*
2 thumbs up,pals! XDDD
Oh yeah~ IheartTovarisch too~ =*****

Since?

Sudahlah. Saya sudah cukup lama bergumul dengan diri saya sendiri. Sudah cukup saya berusaha mengutarakan. Jujur, mungkin bisa kalian simpulkan saya ini orangnya keras kepala, maunya di turutin mulu. Terserah saja maunya dianggap saya ini sombong,arogan,bossy, atau apa saja, saya juga tidak pernah meminta kamu untuk mengerti saya,tidak pernah meminta kamu untuk menggantikan hidup saya.
Selama apa pun saya berharap untuk itu, 100x lebih lama pula saya tidak mendapatkan itu. Jadi lebih baik saya berhenti bergumul. berhenti memaki diri saya sendiri untuk kebodohan yang tidak bisa lagi saya hentikan.
Mungkin sampai detik ini saya tetap berusaha, mengingat kalau saya masih diberi kesempatan oleh Ayah saya untuk bernafas, mengapa saya harus berhenti memberi kesempatan untuk diri saya sendiri kan?

Terkadang saya berpikir,sejak kapan hidup saya berubah seperti ini?

Lend me your voice,may I?

I'm so tired.
Anyway,2-3 days ago I went out with some of my friends, we went to CA and shot some photos there, in the end of the day we went to Matador and opened some serious topics. hehe.
I learn lots of new things from what we talked that night, and I also realised what thing has been stolen from me that I will never have again......

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This is what I think

Whatever I post here = what I'm saying. What goes in my mind is a right to be typed here.
So please, if you think u'll be hurted by reading these.
Don't push yourselves to read. just close this blog and walk away.

Empty

Benar2 cuma tau cara buang nafas kuat2.
Ga tau apa yang harus gw lakuin.
Empty.Plain.
Rasanya ngapain aja slalu serba salah.
Apa sih yang bener?
Gimana bagusnya?
=S

What is this

I don't know what I feel.
towards everthing,every moment and each of you too.
i don't know what is it called.
whether it's sad,happy,jealous,dissapointment,blue.
Is it Random?
I don't think so.

When we look back now, will our jokes still be funny?

The lyric's just too realistic. =]

"But when we leave this year we won't be coming back, no more hanging out cause we're on a different tracks."

I mean it. Idk.

"Till when is it? Till there's no more time ticking for you?"
"I don't know"

=(

I just...

And finally this day has come.
The day we will move on to our real life,the day we have to learn to stand up by our feet.
I still miss some things, some things I lose, I want to reach and pull it back to me, yet I can't.

Heart and hate you, guys. =]

Questars

I miss them, and I will miss them too.
but it seems like they don't

What should I say?

Maybe i've to stop talking.stop feeling.stop reminding.
Never ever judge just from what i say here,what i type here, what you listen from me. If you do then you don't know me. Don't think you will know me from this blog.
Stop that suprised sentences like "i thought you are that strong, i can't believe this,so you r fake for all this time?,blablabla" seriously,it sucks. Even Jesus the mightiest can shed tears,guys.
I never pretend to be strong,i just try to be one. You are the one who keep on telling yourself you have such cold-hearted friend like. It's not my fault to be whatever person i want to be, am i wrong?
stop that judgement about me as i'm a strong or wtf person i am for you. I never run over the hills and scream,"Hey,people! I'm a strong and fierce person! Come and prove it yourself!" i tell you,you won't succeed even if i scream that phrases out loud.
Is it wrong to be a fragile one? I'm a human,for whatever sake!
I never tell you to let me be your role model, if you decided to do it, then it's your consequences to be dissapointed. I don't know, don't you ever think about how i hate myself? I tell you people who can't stop judging this way,you'll hardly have friends or even just to be others friends, so don't come and sit down infront of me and ask, " Why is it this hard to have friends and a better life?" Go find your answer from yourself. You never know how hard to admit the way you hate yourself and then get up again, fall again, get up again, n end up falling again because of these kind of 'I-love-to-judge-you' mortals.

I see this kind of life really end.
If it can't recover and i'll let this one flow. I'm so done with such things.
You never know how it hurts to lose people you care,
How it hurts for you can't stop caring for people who ignore you,
How it hurts to be a person who is called as a stupid one,
How it hurts to be abandoned,
How it hurts to know that people actually not care about you, they just love to pretend,
How it hurts that you cry over things that should be done and gone for long time,
How it hurts to look at pther life,
How it hurts to be me.
So why?
Everytime i need myself to get up,you do this to me?
Infact i'm just that ugly person, am i this pity for you?
Don't tell me i don't learn, yes, i'm stubborn, but i learn.
If i ever know to know people is to be hurted this much, i don't thinki can say thanks to Him.
So, while you are busy on judging me, have you ever once think that i never regret on knowing you?
I know i'm imperfect, and i never beg you to appreciate me.

Last,I'm not judging here,just typing my words.
I'm hateable after all.

Well,I am not one then. =(

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand.  The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.  ~Henri Nouwen

I'm not blaming anyone

Hey,I'm so sad these days. i don't know why.
At the beginning I thought it's just the side-effects of that 'toomanythingsIhavetofinish,GOD!'
but then I realised it's not that.
This afternoon one of my friend begin to nag around about that farewell performance,
I came to a question and ask her, "Hey,don't you tell Ms.Tatty that we can't join the crowd?"
Truly I say, I wasn't disappointed in what she replied me just now,because I think what she said was right, she replied me, "Yah! Go and tell her by yourselves. It's your responsibility for not wanting to join it, you yourself had seen how excited she was. You know she never speak her mind like this one before, she requested this performance by herself from many others and you just go to her office and said "Se,se,walang be thiau bu." . What kind of face will I have to come up with if I had to go and tell that you can't dance?!!?!"
Seriously, she bursted like all I do is saying "Hey,I'm the one who don't want to join and I decided that this team won't too"
That time I're boosted with anger you know,it's not like I didn't think that this problem will appear in the farewell,I've known it since the beginning, yet people still blame me thought.
And I too replied, " Yah,raised your voice again and tell the one who reject it. It's not like I'm the one who want this thing to happen, can't you just raise your volume and say it clearer?"
What she did after it was nagging alllllllllllllll way through the bell, but she loosen her voice.
So what should I do?
you tell me.
I know I don't have anybody to blame. (Really.I mean this one)
However I don't seems to find out any solutions.
If it's some problems about atmosphere I don't think it will be bugging any of us, but if you have lost your passion, then I give up.
i'm so sad.
I'm about to shed tears in blood when I type this sentence,
our days in school will over in hours, but all of us don't seems care enough.
Even though its the moments and memories of yourselves, you never care. ='(

那些日子不再有...

Sorry friends, dunno why, this song always bugs me,making me emo in a very GREAT way.
I'm sharing the lyric to all of you then... =]

All these years, by myself, travel through, storm and rain
There were tears, there were lies
Precious memories we shared, kept me strong, from the pain,
loneliness, and goodbyes

Thoughts of you, still remain
In my heart

(Chorus)
Friends walk this life hand in hand
Though those times will not return
Your kind words, help withstand
The hardships, I have learned
With friends you won’t be alone
but soon someday, we must leave
stepping in, the unknown
Don’t forget
You have me..

**Repeat whole song 1x, chorus

(Bridge)
Keep in mind, till the end
You have me, as your friend

————–

这些年一个人
风也过雨也走
有过泪有过错
还记得坚持甚麽
真爱过才会懂
会寂寞会回首
终有梦终有你在心中

朋友一生一起走
那些日子不再有
一句话一辈子
一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤单过
一声朋友你会懂
还有伤还有痛
还要走还有我

How to???? Omo Omo ----------- ><"

Hey,what to say to Mommy Tatty if we can't participate in dancing?
=S
I'm really in trouble.
Look at her antusiasm and you will definitely know why I am in trouble.
X'(

How can he be such a hilarious guy? XDD

I found things that really made my night tonight.
hahahahahahahhahahaha.
damn funny!
can you imagine a 30 something years old acek2 with this kind of face :

 

And you'll say to people, "Hey, he's my friend!"

wkwkwkwkwkwkwkkw

He really made my day!

XD

*thumbsssss up!!*

10 thumbs up! XD

I envy this one!
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Don't know what to say anymore.
Damn love its concept,colours,EVERYTHING.
I can't help myself for not posting its link.
Check it for inspirations.
P.S. Don't forget to breathe~ =3

The link :
>>> One of the perfect layout =DDD

To my friend who's in struggle....

To my friend,
be stong.
you know you will come to this moment that you avoid since that problem occurs.
I hate to say "I've told you right?" , but that's what appears to be your problem right now.
I hope that this one will really opens your eyes widely.
You are not blind yet.
Open it and face what's infront of you. Don't deny it, there's no other way for you to keep yourself safe.
If that person appears to care about you, then ___ will. Otherwise, ___ won't.
I'm not saying that your efforts mean nothing, but I do think that you deserve things way better than this.
You are too good,my friend.


Tons of hope and love for my friend....
Don't be stress~~~
*You are always stress enough to come and see me, and you are also fresh enough to be happy with others when you're not in a danger situation like this*
ckck
Poor me~ ;'(

I Love You From Now On - Lee Seung Gi

Hedeh,I thought what kind of song that you one. =3=
Tak taunya lagu gene hyo~~~~
Someone's fallen in love right,kawan? hihihi. X'> *makanya denger lagu ginian*
So,skalian deh...I post this one to my friends who read my blog... ;P

Will it works...

We've never fought before.

Maybe we need one again. 

Otherwise,we won't know how to speak loud what's inside.

Therfore,whoever you are,speak to me when you are in a damn worst mood. 

I'll be glad if it works.

What I need and what I want.

Sebenarnya aku ini sudah bosan seperti ini atau belum?
Bisa begini terus?
Waktu bukan teman baikku,juga bukan saudaraku, dia tidak tahu bagaimana caranya bersikap manis padaku.
Maka waktu pun tidak pernah menungguku.
Aku sadar, belum pernah sekalipun aku meminta waktu untuk menungguku.
Karena bagiku,dia tidak pernah menyembuhkan aku,dia hanya tahu bagaimana caranya membuat hatiku sedikit kebal. Namun tidak pernah menghibur aku,dia hanya tau bagaimana caranya meratapi aku.
Jujur,aku gerah seperti ini. Bukan mauku juga hidupku bergulir begini.
Tapi aku sudah sampai di titik dimana aku tidak tahu lagi harus berbuat apa, orang-orang yang menjadi peganganku juga sudah lepas tangan. Mereka tidak tahu bagaimana caranya menyelamatkanku.
Tidak banyak yang aku minta dari hidupku. ='(
Kalau memang begini jalannya aku meninggalkan masa SMA-ku, aku terima.
Yang aku minta hanya satu.
Tegarkan aku.

What creature am I?

 

For my friend.... hehe.

I know

we will

Not

stay

like

this

forever

that makes me

find myself

unbelievably

the saddest creature

in this

world

Push yourself and keep on going

Nothing will be easy afterall. =]
Maybe some words will hurt your heart, wash away your dream and stomp your spirit, but believe me, no one's not worth-ier then others. The only one that I believe is whether you be the first who learn it or last. Try to love what you do and you'll be the best in it. Don't push too hard for something you hate, just learn to breathe with it.
I believe that motivation will be something that you need the most, not an amusement.People will always say "you'll be fine,just get along with it" but inside you, you know what part you have hurted.
I'm not saying that people's judgement is not important, sometimes it just misses. Not every single judgement about yourself is true, the truly one hide inside you. You are the only one who have the right to judge yourself,whether you are as pity as people told you are, or not.
I pray for you, so that every path you take will be guided by my Father.
Live stronger so people will learn to not worrying about you too much.
Live happily.
Keep on smiling.
yet cry when it slaps your heart.

We'll move to different ways, seperated by tons of problems, gazillions of people.
I believe on fate, that every person I've ever met, are my destinations of life.
what matter's how you make your next footprints in people's life.