It just happens

Sorry if I fall in love.

First

ummm..
first day.... i should say.... boring? Nothing much to do, I wasted almost 9 hours sitting, browsing for some unnecessary stuffs. ugh. I feel like if this is what people call as work, then I'll better do house-works. .____. You understand the level of boredom?
Anyway, I haven't found the bag that I wanted, the pola films that I need. oh my. tonight will be super hectic!
And the worse you know what? Yesterday was the last episode of Nice Guy! and I didn't have time to watch it either last night or tonight!!! :(((( So sad! no matter what I do, I won't sleep tonight before I finish arranging all my stuffs, tidy up my pig-dorm-like room, and watch Maru & Eun Gi!!!!!! I promise!


Caris

NVR

I know. I know it very well that I'll never blend among them completely. I don't know when did I find out that I'm actually just another stranger trying to fit into them, yet I fail. Yes, it's heart-breaking to admit, but I'll never be one of them although it seems to be the other way around.

Maybe I'm just too tired. Tired of being treated differently. Tired of giving too much care that others treat you differently. Being treated nicer doesn't mean it will always make you happy. One day you'll just realize you are too far that you barely reach them in some points. Are they really those people? Those people that I mean to stick to until the end?

I just don't feel like that anymore. 

This is not envy, i promise. It's not because I saw photos, news, tweets or stuffs like that. It's just sometime when you realize they are much more happier without you. Get what I mean? This is one of my reasons why I keep pushing myself not to go back hometown for work this year-end. I keep telling myself 'you are not good enough to show yourself there, it's just not the right time.'

I know I have had this particular 'sickness' in me since long ago. Uncured illness, when my body and mind just LOVE to pull herself away from people that she actually care about. Yes, that stupid illness. 

Maybe one day you will understand what I feel.

Maybe not now.

Maybe tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, next month, next year, or never.

Now?

It's just a big hole inside me. However, it is not painful. The thing is, because I don't feel anything anymore beside being tired and plain, I get to worried about myself. At least I feel something before, either it's painful, hurt or whatsoever. It's scarier because now I feel like I have nothing to lose.
That hole is just so round and deep like i have no one, no one to lose among my friends.

no one really try to hang on there and make me fight for him/her.

too flat that i think everyone is just as fake as others.

I'm sorry if anyone's offended by this post, I don't mean that way. It's femmepurplelicious' anyway.

;)

So there it goes.
the storm of November for the entire Medanese. ;)

Told ya, don't tell me that I didn't warn y'all before.
hihi.
Enjoy the effect for those who know, and please stay curious who are still wondering what's happened.It will hit you sooner or later. :)

Men Are All Like That

Kim Jong Kook - Men Are All Like That
It's true, men are all like that. They treat ladies just like toys, their guitars, cameras.
Bored? Get rid of them.


I beg a pardon for my fanaticism upon Song Joong Ki these days.
He is to die for in Nice Guy.

It's in fact a really interesting story to be addicted in.
Give it a shot. Oh, if you find Joong Ki is damn nerd in the first episode, it's okay, you won't get enough of him after a few episodes. Nice Guys is currently on its 16th and will end at 20th.