Poker Face

Hey, sorry for leaving this blog for the whole weekend.
Today I'll post a teaser of a drama that I think as the best drama in this couple of years so far.
Other posts will be tomorrow's and maybe I'll be leaving this blog till the 6-7th June ? :)
So, I finally finish watching this drama!!! T^T
I've been waiting for its subbed the whole weekend *hukshuks*
I'm glad it's a happy ending, however I still feel sad for it. Don't know why. But trust me, whoever read this post should try to watch this drama (if you are a fan of K-dramas? DEFINITELY A MUST!)
Maybe at the first time you'll think that both of the main actor-actress don't suit each other, but again,TRUST ME, they're the best couple for 2012 dramas so far! :3
The drama has a quite unique genre too. Definitely must watch, oh, I fall in love with its main OST too, I'm tuning it as my first song played when you open this blog. It's After a Long Time - Baek Ji Young, maybe it's kinda melow, but..... i don't know, the intro is sooooooooo *speechless* hihi.

So, my suggestion is... just watch it if you have some time. I have the entire subbed file too if you want. :)

It's a teaser from ep 7 :)

What I love the most from this drama is this drama doesn't feature stupid main role, while other dramas tend to have a moron main actress / actor who like to cry and couldn't solve things plus tend to let the villains win almost everything, Rooftop Prince give us those main actors and actresses who we won't ever call stupid. This drama doesn't make us go "OMG. Hey, stupid actor, look at your back, that bad person is back stabbing you" or something like that. The mystery and riddles from this drama is being open one by one from the first episode, I'm sure all of you who watch this will be curious from the moment you watch the first episode. Oh,and don't worry, the main actor won't remain long hair, just bare till episode 4-5. He'll be handsome I guarantee you. :) Make sure you don't stop till ep 5-6, because that's the moment when this drama started to be addictive ;)

Enjoy your journey from Jeoseon dynasty - 2012 : ticket to bring back 300 years time

P.S. The first and second episode might lead you to a little bit of bored because it took part in ancient set, but it won't last forever ;))

Oh, if you don't know the couple, it's Park Yoochun / Micky Yoochun - former idol members of JYJ (used to be in the famous TVXQ group) , and Han Ji Min.
What I really fall for the both of them is their voice, both of them has a really nice voice, a very calming one, since Micky is a singer so I don't doubt it, and if you watch the drama, you'll know that Han Ji Min has a very gentle-narrator-voice <3 <3 it has been a long time since I really love a drama. I put this drama in my top 5 list :)


my wish : Hopefully I can run to them when I go to Hangguk *pray pray* *loverofTVXQsinceJHS* hhi
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Dedicated

I dedicate this song to every readers who need to survive. cheers!

谁叫我...

i simply love this song when i first heard of it many years ago from a Taiwanese drama, that time I didn't even figure out who sang the song, it took me years to find this song :)


A sentence from its lyric catch my attention.
"谁叫我真的爱的就是你..."
- who told me to make you as the one who I really love -


no one. i just do.

Tell me how to if you really want to

I'm searching pictures for my post before, and I found this.... =|

it hits me

can't you understand what I'm trying to tell?

I need to release it, even though I hold on it for so long, 

because what's the point of keeping it forever as mine if it's never been mine actually? 

If it never tries to appreciate me, then how should I hold on?

tell me.

:'(':

because i haven't 100% let you go.

What to do?

So, weekend is ending in 3 more hours :S
I guess yesterday and today will be my last hang out with all of them for the next 3-4 weeks.
I don't know what I feel about that actually. =|
To be honest, I'm not even excited about my vacation. at all. seriously!
*Dad, punish me please* ==a

I don't know.
I just hope when I get back next month they are ready for their birthdays plan, plus I hope I can make it to Medan around their dates. ><
I doubt that I'll be here around their birthday dates. :SSSS

So, what to prepare for their HUGE surprises too? I've been thinking what to do for each of them like.... since February???? *screw me*
for gifts, I have decided what to give for some of them, the others.... ??? *na molla~* *michoso michoso michoso~~*

Actually it'll be nice if it's a really really small outing, like a really small one, and maybe they can put their wishes in a jar and we complete them together, in one condition, it's something can be done by a human and fun to be done together. Not something like outbound though *lirik nusuk tajam" kalo baca ini* .
A small party will be nice too, BUT since there are 4 of them, ck, bo ho pua bagi gw dong? tiok chia 1x saja??? =pppp hahahahaha XDDDD  V(=p=)V

I really hope it'll be nice mid of June for all of them, really. :) I will put my best effort if there's something I can help them with.. maybe buddies posts will be out here sometime during that time too. ;)

See, it'll soon be a year. I still remember what I baked for one's birthday last year, how I prepare ones' birthday bashes last year. It seems to be so fast.

Have all of us grown up?
Change?
In a year?

Don't change too fast...
I'm enough of goodbyes and loses.
I'm afraid I can't catch up your changes.....

... who fuck her own life

too painful to shout them out.
too painful to type it out.

Even though my desire to tell them out is big... i don't know.

Things are better left unspoken.

You don't know why I chose my way.



People who care will ask, not only read.
I believe it that way.

Missed

Dance again this afternoon, planning to spend about an hour everyday to dance :)
So we went to that Indian restaurant again tonight, karaoke at K2 and end our trip at Juice Stall @Asia.
Had some fun, not much story we shared tonight, but still a fun drizzling night.

We talked about a topic tonight, something caught my mind.
hmm.
Had fun, but then something still disappears from that crazy nights.....

Another Gloomy Day? Hot Summer!

Rained.

Woke up this morning, nothing much. My therapist told me not to run and jump ( dance included in it ), really I can't stand it anymore, because of my back bone issue. *sigh

So, I danced this afternoon, sweat a lot. Oh, I hurt my thumb too,because of that silly white door. =|

Every single things has been flat these days. nothing really exciting. Except... one?

Hmm, I haven't told you about one of my friend who's currently having crush all over my sister, have I? What a silly sister I have, sometimes she tell her stories in a very 'teasing' intonation, c'mon, no one intend to steal anything include Charlie's son from you. :) I've known him for years although we're not that close. Even your brother recognize him earlier than you, I bet he's even inspired by that son of Charlie to start guitar tuition... haha. I never know since when my home started to hire a new driver with green vintage car ? hihihi.

I'll watch movie with my buddies tonight. Hope it'll be another fun for me
Gotta go now, mommy's back!


P.S. thanks to all my readers who patiently read all my whines till today ;*

Flat.... Flat... :|
haha =,=V

never vanish, always there

There was once a man told me when I was a child, "You are nothing. Do you think you are so great, so nice and lovable that everybody always take care on you? Stop dreaming. You are you right now because of your mom. Everybody respects your mom, that's why you are being taken care and loved like this."

That sentences stuck on my mind until now, I remember I heard it from him when he was driving me home from a tuition class. Maybe he never realized how that kind of sentences will hurt an under 10 years old child's heart. Indeed, that moment and that words has been a statement for me until now, that I am loved not  because I'm doing great, no matter how much effort I've put into every decisions I've made, I'll always be my mom's daughter. It's not that I hate my mom because of this, I love her and proud of every single things she did, she's strong and weak in the same time. She's too strong to be able to cover the truth that she has that pain all over herself.

The truth is, I don't have a single person to complaint to. Maybe what I heard from someone this afternoon was right, I'm nothing but a pure protester. I complaint too much on life without anyone know about it. I look simply fine, but you'll never know what's inside me. 

I've got my own answer for that, it's because I simply haven't met anyone who care about me, not a single person really ask me what's wrong with me, even though they know I've got a problem. Not a single person I know really treat me like I'm an important person in their life, it seems like everybody takes me for granted..... this really makes me feel desperate. to be honest.

I never say money is not important, I never say that you're fooling me around playing joke about me, but what I actually simply asking from you is your time, your care, I know you realize that I may be pretending to be a strong person, but can't you even stop by and just asking a bullshit like a simple "does it hurt?". At least you'll know how much I've endured this kind of pain.

Lately I feel empty, my body's with them, having fun, going out around town, joking around, but I realize my heart's not there. I missed something I don't know.

One of my friends always say this to me, " Ah, you are so lucky. You're so rich, aren't you? What for you to be sad about? See, you get everything you want. " 

I simply smile. I laugh for that kind of statement about me. You know lots of things about me, but the funny thing is, you don't even understand me, do you?

I lose too much these days, I lose persons who used to know me, asking silly things like "what're ya doing?" "ate yet?" I lose too much.

I don't know why, sometimes I feel like as time goes by, I slowly turn into a villain. Bad things always occur in my mind.

I don't know what to say, maybe I'm not supposed to ask anymore. I just want that time back, maybe that's too much, to have a person next to me.

I used to have one, that person used to be himself wherever he goes, but lately I don't think he has been himself, maybe that's what they call growing mature? or is it because time and distance has made me care him less and can't even understand or notice him anymore?

haha.
whatever.
I have no body.

Exhausted from everything

lots of things popping out in my mind.
I'm back in hometown now. have been a week since last Saturday.
two of my buddies fetched me at the airport without any of my family members knew about it.


Went to Binjai yesterday, it had been a glommy day and I spend most of my time in car. I think about lots of things, and when we reached our destination, I realized something.


I've never completely erase you in my mind.
Maybe I never start to.
I tried before.
Many harsh ways have been done by me just to make you leave my mind, but why won't you?
Those pretending and silent time back then was really exhausting, I don't think I want to take that path all over again.
then what should I do?


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I hate this type of me.
bare with me please.
sigh.
can't ask the other person to stop being nice to me when what i want is being treated nicely right?
I'm super confused and confusing I think.

*bang my head to the wall*