There's something that makes me Uber happy in this photo. =333333
wkwkwkwkwkwk. XDDDDDDDD
that's the first one which I made among three of them. >< =))))
Anyway,mami looks much like his uncle now. =O
see... his hair. =OO
*edwin gendutan nih ye~ XDD
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Hapy happy happy =DDD
There's something that makes me Uber happy in this photo. =333333
wkwkwkwkwkwk. XDDDDDDDD
that's the first one which I made among three of them. >< =))))
Anyway,mami looks much like his uncle now. =O
see... his hair. =OO
*edwin gendutan nih ye~ XDD
29th July 2011
So..
I'm supposed to dedicate a post yesterday to my Mami... =(
Sorry mami, I didn't type a post for you..
Not even have time and chance to reach you like I used to. =(((
How are you? Have you been that busy? =')
I don't have things to give you now, just this... =(
and I'm too stupid that I don't have any idea how to flip this photos, mami T^T
huks huks.
I've been not really well these couple of days..=(
Feel so alone,you know. Even if I play the noisiest songs from my laptop.
Yesterday morning my mom had flown back to Medan and like you guessed, the room felt so empty at night in sudden. Things have been in a complete silence. PLUS, I had my major briefing yesterday, and I felt like.... I'm so dead. I cried alot yesterday. in my room, in the bathroom, and in my room again. ><
I don't know, I felt so stupid, I'll have fashion design,fashion communication,fashion management and fashion textiles to learn this year, and I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO SEW!!!! I'm completely screwed,I'm so dead, it's not like I'm in the foundation or D1,D2,D3..... I'm in Bachelor level 1,people. T^T and I don't know anything about drafting and sewing, not even know how to draw the clothes design properly. >< Plus I really don't have any friend in my faculty,really, I haven't found any Indonesian too... Can you guess how screwed I were yesterday? TTTTT^TTTTT Plus, I got problems with my laptop. Oh my God, what a day.... and I didn't have any person to tell my burdens to at the moment I had those all stuffs in my head.... ><" Thanks God there's some like Wenny, Duffin, Eric. They calmed me a LOT. Expecially that PENGKHIANAT UKnow, Eric,hhhhhh. I really want to thanked him like ...... THANKYOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!! ='DDDD
today I feel better, but tonight my aunt and his husband will take a flight to visit their son in Africa...so, I guess..... it will be a really hard time for me these months ahead. I'm lucky that some of my friends at my hometown haven't had their classes,nor do the orientations.... Can you imagine the moment they get busy and me too? =( There'll be less-contacts, no one will accompany me all day anymore. *sigh*
I really need those people. Yes,Dad,those people... Can You at least show me other people like them? ='(
I'm supposed to dedicate a post yesterday to my Mami... =(
Sorry mami, I didn't type a post for you..
Not even have time and chance to reach you like I used to. =(((
How are you? Have you been that busy? =')
I don't have things to give you now, just this... =(
huks huks.
I've been not really well these couple of days..=(
Feel so alone,you know. Even if I play the noisiest songs from my laptop.
Yesterday morning my mom had flown back to Medan and like you guessed, the room felt so empty at night in sudden. Things have been in a complete silence. PLUS, I had my major briefing yesterday, and I felt like.... I'm so dead. I cried alot yesterday. in my room, in the bathroom, and in my room again. ><
I don't know, I felt so stupid, I'll have fashion design,fashion communication,fashion management and fashion textiles to learn this year, and I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO SEW!!!! I'm completely screwed,I'm so dead, it's not like I'm in the foundation or D1,D2,D3..... I'm in Bachelor level 1,people. T^T and I don't know anything about drafting and sewing, not even know how to draw the clothes design properly. >< Plus I really don't have any friend in my faculty,really, I haven't found any Indonesian too... Can you guess how screwed I were yesterday? TTTTT^TTTTT Plus, I got problems with my laptop. Oh my God, what a day.... and I didn't have any person to tell my burdens to at the moment I had those all stuffs in my head.... ><" Thanks God there's some like Wenny, Duffin, Eric. They calmed me a LOT. Expecially that PENGKHIANAT UKnow, Eric,hhhhhh. I really want to thanked him like ...... THANKYOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!! ='DDDD
today I feel better, but tonight my aunt and his husband will take a flight to visit their son in Africa...so, I guess..... it will be a really hard time for me these months ahead. I'm lucky that some of my friends at my hometown haven't had their classes,nor do the orientations.... Can you imagine the moment they get busy and me too? =( There'll be less-contacts, no one will accompany me all day anymore. *sigh*
I really need those people. Yes,Dad,those people... Can You at least show me other people like them? ='(
Thursday, July 28, 2011
It simply makes me sad. =(
I'm so sad.
Looking at those pictures makes me sad.
I don't know.
Seems like I'm disappointed.
Deeply.
Deeply disappointed.
Is this what they called disappointed? or simply mad? or maybe... jealous?
Idk.
Looking at those pictures makes me sad.
I don't know.
Seems like I'm disappointed.
Deeply.
Deeply disappointed.
Is this what they called disappointed? or simply mad? or maybe... jealous?
Idk.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Here we go!
Hello,my friends.....
I'm so tired today. Well,I didn't do too much stuff this morning,just registration...but after the +++++++++..... hufff,my legs ended numb. T^T
I got my new student email and portal link today, hehe. it's kinda cool when your name's attached to your school's name. :3
There's not too much to post for today I guess....
Umm,there's something I really want to ask to Father, You know, there's someone who's lately being so sad *Idk,but I think so* cause everytime I saw this person's post from my bb/bbm... he's kinda lost.. Help him,will You? Maybe there's no more me as a person who can ask,share,and help, but I know You will be that person for my friend. =)
Tomorrow will be the first day of my orientation....huff,10-5pm >< I really hope everything's gonna be smooooothhhhh and fine. =D
My Mom'll back to hometown @28....and my brother will officially graduate tomorrow! XD So sad I can't attend his graduation ceremony though....=|
Ok,I think this will be the end of my post tonight. I'm sleepy,waiting for that kepot's reply. =3=
I'm so tired today. Well,I didn't do too much stuff this morning,just registration...but after the +++++++++..... hufff,my legs ended numb. T^T
I got my new student email and portal link today, hehe. it's kinda cool when your name's attached to your school's name. :3
There's not too much to post for today I guess....
Umm,there's something I really want to ask to Father, You know, there's someone who's lately being so sad *Idk,but I think so* cause everytime I saw this person's post from my bb/bbm... he's kinda lost.. Help him,will You? Maybe there's no more me as a person who can ask,share,and help, but I know You will be that person for my friend. =)
Tomorrow will be the first day of my orientation....huff,10-5pm >< I really hope everything's gonna be smooooothhhhh and fine. =D
My Mom'll back to hometown @28....and my brother will officially graduate tomorrow! XD So sad I can't attend his graduation ceremony though....=|
Ok,I think this will be the end of my post tonight. I'm sleepy,waiting for that kepot's reply. =3=
Monday, July 25, 2011
Why now? not that time? =3
I was searching on youtube, searching some new MV... when I found this. =) maybe it's not 2009 for me, it's 2010-2011. Wondering why I found it now, not that time. Wondering why I can post this now, not back then? =))
*skip the 'that was all a lie', I never felt like it was a lie. =)
*skip the 'that was all a lie', I never felt like it was a lie. =)
Hectic Silly Morning = Insane First Day =PP
Hello,buddies! =)
It's 6.40pm already, but it's still bright here... The sky looks like a shining canvas.hihi.
I smile a lot today, umm.... I had my medical check up this morning, woke up 6.50am and my eyes was just like O,O
Went to the Raffles Hospital, and met up with some friends from Medan. What's actually funny was that something that happen in the Room 1 (the place I got my blood checked) Ok, I got number 1005,so when the light went red *ting tung* (1005 showed up) and I quickly went in. Like usual,I know you know how's getting some blood from your blood feels like,right? haha. But mine was a weirdo one. The nurse spent almost 15 minutes re-tap and re-tap my hand,re-tighten the rope,trying to feel my pulse...... but,she couldn't find out any vein.wkwkwkkwkwkwk. this's actually so funny yet scary, she's like murmuring over and over again "I never find something like this before" "Wah,yours are so rare" hihihii. So after 15 minutes,she still couldn't feel my vein, she asked me to get X-Ray first,I went out to the X-Ray room. And after I did it,I went straight back to Room 1, wkkwkwkwkwkwkwkwkwk , XD this is silly I tell you, first, she did what she had done, with my left hand, and finally she's pretty sure that she felt my vein so she took out her injection tool and injected it into my left and,when she tried to pull out blood,there's no blood coming out and she was like what the hell---- hihihihihi. she injected it even deeper and deeper till the other nurse's face was just like eeeeewwwww~ can't see >>>,<<< but actually I thought it didn't even hurt... =\ Injection in Medan is like 3 times pain than this. And after 3 minutes,she dicided to pull out the injection and try her re-tap,re-touch,re-tighten on my right hand,Ok, this time she kinda not sure that she felt my pulse or any vein and she's like....
"How can you have no vein a? ckckckck"
"Have you ever got your blood tested?"
"Is it always like this"
+ shaking her head over and over and over and she spent like almost half an hour try to FEEL my vein, can you imagine?
Ok this time she took her injection again and try to inject my right hand, and........ like what you guessed, no blood comes out from my right hand and she was like wooooooooow. XDDD
*You'll be thinking that.....Am I one of The Cullens? XDDDD*
this time she had no choice and then she said "Ok,I'll be taking your blood from here a" she's looking at the back of my hand.... umm,you know when you're typing laptop....you can see one side of your hand right? yeah, from that side of my hand she took my blood, it's a little bit painful in the first 3 seconds, but when I think about it all,I kept on smiling while looking at the nurse. wkwkwkwkkwk. *Actually,nurse or doctor?*
After the check up, we went to get some brunch,went to the ICA for awhile and then I went to Orchard with some guys. =] What's so great today is I don't have to wait for YM at night already~ *yeay* =P
Actually, I set my YM on and off and on and off and even invisible, checking it every 5 minutes last night while chatting with my friends on fb, but that pouter don't even showed up, =3=".
00.00am
so I turned off the light,get my blanket, I wanted to turn off my phone but I ended letting it on and even my YM was on.
And in the moment I was just opening the door of my dreamland,my phone... *tring tring* and keep on tring"-ing. Beuh, almost 1am and he finally came out from nowhere. >3< and like....
"wuaahhhhhhh" "boi bb a...."
=3=" just about to scream to my dream,"AT LAST!",you know. ==
=\ =/ but.... idc, at least I got my night greetings last night. *lalala =P
I slept pretty much tighter yesterday night for 5 hours and ready for my not-too-hectic morning today.
and just after I finished my thingsss this morning, something popped up from my recent updates list on bbm....and it officially made me don't have to wait for YM again tonight. hehehe. O:))) at least until the next '...till I have my own money to on my bb o' =3
Please,anything,don't ruin my mood.please.please.please. =D
It's 6.40pm already, but it's still bright here... The sky looks like a shining canvas.hihi.
I smile a lot today, umm.... I had my medical check up this morning, woke up 6.50am and my eyes was just like O,O
Went to the Raffles Hospital, and met up with some friends from Medan. What's actually funny was that something that happen in the Room 1 (the place I got my blood checked) Ok, I got number 1005,so when the light went red *ting tung* (1005 showed up) and I quickly went in. Like usual,I know you know how's getting some blood from your blood feels like,right? haha. But mine was a weirdo one. The nurse spent almost 15 minutes re-tap and re-tap my hand,re-tighten the rope,trying to feel my pulse...... but,she couldn't find out any vein.wkwkwkkwkwkwk. this's actually so funny yet scary, she's like murmuring over and over again "I never find something like this before" "Wah,yours are so rare" hihihii. So after 15 minutes,she still couldn't feel my vein, she asked me to get X-Ray first,I went out to the X-Ray room. And after I did it,I went straight back to Room 1, wkkwkwkwkwkwkwkwkwk , XD this is silly I tell you, first, she did what she had done, with my left hand, and finally she's pretty sure that she felt my vein so she took out her injection tool and injected it into my left and,when she tried to pull out blood,there's no blood coming out and she was like what the hell---- hihihihihi. she injected it even deeper and deeper till the other nurse's face was just like eeeeewwwww~ can't see >>>,<<< but actually I thought it didn't even hurt... =\ Injection in Medan is like 3 times pain than this. And after 3 minutes,she dicided to pull out the injection and try her re-tap,re-touch,re-tighten on my right hand,Ok, this time she kinda not sure that she felt my pulse or any vein and she's like....
"How can you have no vein a? ckckckck"
"Have you ever got your blood tested?"
"Is it always like this"
+ shaking her head over and over and over and she spent like almost half an hour try to FEEL my vein, can you imagine?
Ok this time she took her injection again and try to inject my right hand, and........ like what you guessed, no blood comes out from my right hand and she was like wooooooooow. XDDD
*You'll be thinking that.....Am I one of The Cullens? XDDDD*
this time she had no choice and then she said "Ok,I'll be taking your blood from here a" she's looking at the back of my hand.... umm,you know when you're typing laptop....you can see one side of your hand right? yeah, from that side of my hand she took my blood, it's a little bit painful in the first 3 seconds, but when I think about it all,I kept on smiling while looking at the nurse. wkwkwkwkkwk. *Actually,nurse or doctor?*
After the check up, we went to get some brunch,went to the ICA for awhile and then I went to Orchard with some guys. =] What's so great today is I don't have to wait for YM at night already~ *yeay* =P
Actually, I set my YM on and off and on and off and even invisible, checking it every 5 minutes last night while chatting with my friends on fb, but that pouter don't even showed up, =3=".
00.00am
so I turned off the light,get my blanket, I wanted to turn off my phone but I ended letting it on and even my YM was on.
And in the moment I was just opening the door of my dreamland,my phone... *tring tring* and keep on tring"-ing. Beuh, almost 1am and he finally came out from nowhere. >3< and like....
"wuaahhhhhhh" "boi bb a...."
=3=" just about to scream to my dream,"AT LAST!",you know. ==
=\ =/ but.... idc, at least I got my night greetings last night. *lalala =P
I slept pretty much tighter yesterday night for 5 hours and ready for my not-too-hectic morning today.
and just after I finished my thingsss this morning, something popped up from my recent updates list on bbm....and it officially made me don't have to wait for YM again tonight. hehehe. O:))) at least until the next '...till I have my own money to on my bb o' =3
Please,anything,don't ruin my mood.please.please.please. =D
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Sunday, July 24, 2011
Morning everybody!
Hi,good morning there.. =)
It's sunny here,how bout you,guys?
Was it raining heavily in Medan last night? I really hope here did too. =(
It's pretty sad when I come to think about not sharing the same sky and the same weather with people in my hometown.hhh.
Umm, I guess today will be another silent day. No bbm company,so... will be quite quiet till my friend set his bb on again soon. (>,<) Hey,read this. =3= I feel bad to face that you have to set your bb off the day after I nag all night long to you. >< and just end that night like that. I'm going to be busy in days, so, going online from laptop everynight maybe won't be the best solution,hmm? And your skype's crash, moreover you have problem with your webcam, you won't join kko visiting me in Spore. haiz. Maybe I'm a little too much, but I really hope you can at least make something works with me. See it doesn't have too be egg tart, your mom will ask again then if you do that. hhhh. =p but at least... come on, I hate to use the word 'effort',cause I know you hate it the most, it seems like I'm the only one acting stupid while you don't care. =/
It's 10.20 right now, still waiting for others while I'm hungry. =="
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=| : "So,when will you set your bbm on again" | =) : "umm,I don't know, maybe till I can do it with my own money,it's sucks when you have to ask from your parents. why? " | =| : "oo.." *IguessthisstartstobequiteboringSingapore*
=| : "......" *some minutes w/-o typing anything* | =) : "hmmm. I'm getting quite confuse,there's no read sign or not here,so I don't know whether you haven't read this or not replying this. ==" | =| : *aha* "Quickly set your bbm on then" *hehe*
It's sunny here,how bout you,guys?
Was it raining heavily in Medan last night? I really hope here did too. =(
It's pretty sad when I come to think about not sharing the same sky and the same weather with people in my hometown.hhh.
Umm, I guess today will be another silent day. No bbm company,so... will be quite quiet till my friend set his bb on again soon. (>,<) Hey,read this. =3= I feel bad to face that you have to set your bb off the day after I nag all night long to you. >< and just end that night like that. I'm going to be busy in days, so, going online from laptop everynight maybe won't be the best solution,hmm? And your skype's crash, moreover you have problem with your webcam, you won't join kko visiting me in Spore. haiz. Maybe I'm a little too much, but I really hope you can at least make something works with me. See it doesn't have too be egg tart, your mom will ask again then if you do that. hhhh. =p but at least... come on, I hate to use the word 'effort',cause I know you hate it the most, it seems like I'm the only one acting stupid while you don't care. =/
It's 10.20 right now, still waiting for others while I'm hungry. =="
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| this is what i see on my left |
=| : "So,when will you set your bbm on again" | =) : "umm,I don't know, maybe till I can do it with my own money,it's sucks when you have to ask from your parents. why? " | =| : "oo.." *IguessthisstartstobequiteboringSingapore*
=| : "......" *some minutes w/-o typing anything* | =) : "hmmm. I'm getting quite confuse,there's no read sign or not here,so I don't know whether you haven't read this or not replying this. ==" | =| : *aha* "Quickly set your bbm on then" *hehe*
Saturday, July 23, 2011
How are you?
5.25pm here in Singapore.
Yes, it's been couple of days I'm breathing in this hectic city. I don't know why I don't really feel alive,like any people do. I don't feel like really leaving my hometown for quite a long time staying in Spore, except the fact like I cried and felt really pathetic the whole 20th July 2011. I cried for every single thing I looked at. Funny ei? =/
So,how's life there,people? Fine? Marvelous? or ..... what?
And how's life without me around?
I got fever yesterday, like whole day I'm accompanied by my bb, bed, botolles of water and medicines. Thanks God there's bb + people who accompannied my boring day. It rained hardly yesterday morning-afternoon and I stayed at home for 24 hours. Woke up this morning and I'm back to normal. Halleluyah! >< but today's quite boring too, hh, I guess I had some argue+complain-ing thing last night and today I'm not quite accompanied by who used to do that everday with me. So, wondering what's he doing. =|
I chatted with Wenny last night, one thing I haven't done for quite some time since I've stepped singapore....It's always been a great thing to chat with her. haha. I realize some things only by chatting with her. hihihi.
Oh, I looked at that signature book I have,signatures and notes from Questers yesterday,some of them are really just cute and funny. haha. >,< Thankyou,guys,for writing those stuffs. =)
I got a letter that succesfully made me cry too. =')
I got a card with a photo inside too. really.
I <3 you all and I mean it.
I guess,this is my post for today?
It's hot here. How bout there?
What are you doing?
Are you fine?
Yes, it's been couple of days I'm breathing in this hectic city. I don't know why I don't really feel alive,like any people do. I don't feel like really leaving my hometown for quite a long time staying in Spore, except the fact like I cried and felt really pathetic the whole 20th July 2011. I cried for every single thing I looked at. Funny ei? =/
So,how's life there,people? Fine? Marvelous? or ..... what?
And how's life without me around?
I got fever yesterday, like whole day I'm accompanied by my bb, bed, botolles of water and medicines. Thanks God there's bb + people who accompannied my boring day. It rained hardly yesterday morning-afternoon and I stayed at home for 24 hours. Woke up this morning and I'm back to normal. Halleluyah! >< but today's quite boring too, hh, I guess I had some argue+complain-ing thing last night and today I'm not quite accompanied by who used to do that everday with me. So, wondering what's he doing. =|
I chatted with Wenny last night, one thing I haven't done for quite some time since I've stepped singapore....It's always been a great thing to chat with her. haha. I realize some things only by chatting with her. hihihi.
Oh, I looked at that signature book I have,signatures and notes from Questers yesterday,some of them are really just cute and funny. haha. >,< Thankyou,guys,for writing those stuffs. =)
I got a letter that succesfully made me cry too. =')
I got a card with a photo inside too. really.
I <3 you all and I mean it.
I guess,this is my post for today?
It's hot here. How bout there?
What are you doing?
Are you fine?
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Sunday, July 10, 2011
Tell me tell me tell me
umm...
it's been awhile since my last post,am I right? hhh.
i guess, I've had lots of -quite-fun-time- that I didn't type that much anymore. thanks to one who accompany me then *I don't think too much these nights that I barely galau-ing loh*....;P
hmmm. time do flies,you know. I have 9 days left before I finally leave my town for quite some time. I don't know how I feel for this, I'm not that sad, not that antusiastic anymore, yet i'm not that happy. And I guess I'll leave lots of unfixed and undone things here in my town...hahaha. Should I feel terrible for it? =')
I've tried to live much happier for I know people will still go on and live normally even without me... so... yeah, you know what I mean. =) I sometimes wonder.... will I cry on 20th? will I shed my tears that morning for my friends? for how pity I am not be able to have those senior high school time anymore with my friends? Well,B... I'm quite scared actually, I'll be the only one from Medan who's pursuing Bachelor degree of Fashion Management there... =( Those friends who I've known from this town will be going for Diploma.... it means...... well, you know. =((( and I don't have any single human who calms me down. ><" even Roro doesn't TooT hukshuks
So,who want to spend a day with me in my hometown,friends?anyone? hhh.=P You'll barely see me even if I'm in town years ahead *I think* cause either one of us will be busy, I guess..... hehe. Sometimes I'm sad, because Quest's part in my life has to be ended like this... no last full-member gathering, and one by one of you just.... puffff. gone and like... "see you guys again..if God permits" ==" wth... =s
efforts,guys~ efforts~~ T^T Hope you'll understand what I mean one day...hukhuks.Days have been going wild nowadays,B.. some of my friends broke up, I hope they really make the best choice out of them...and may they can move to another bigger step of their life.Right? =)
So,what should I do in this some days left? Any idea? =S
Tell me wherever you think I'll be able to know what your idea/-s is/are. =)
I'll be waiting.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Can't I just be....
How r your days? fine? good? great? awesome? fabulous? I hope so =)
Umm, actually I really want to write things here from days ago... But i don't know what stop me from typing here again and again til tonight I make up my mind to type here.
So I'm now back to my hometown, from 9-10 days of short trip to Jakarta.. I finally met a person -maybe for the last time this year- exactly a month before his birthday. hehe. 29th June 2011. I don't know how to describe my feeling that day, was it happy or so-so, I thought I was pretty cool for not bothering too much whether I'ld met him or not, but I dreamt about him wearing yellow T-shirt (which he really wore on the day we met) and met me at my house @Medan, what's really funny about this was he also dreamt of meeting me at my house @Medan in that exact same night. Weird or antusiastic? =/ =p Same expression when we woke up in the next morning = " Wth?! dream? =.=" " right? no? wkwkwk. Frankly I dreamt about that person again in the night of 29th, this one's funny so I guess i'll keep this one as my own story (maybe I'll tell that person which was in my dream). hhhh. =]
So,I'll skip the part when we finally met up at my aunt's house and bla bla bla bla......and, what do I feel grateful about from that 29th June IS...... That I finally have a person -who is fortunately my friend also- that can sit there with my family members in a small round table,chit chatting bout my true personal stuffs,simply there.=] I'm so happy that I've met that one person who sat beside me when I've to listen to those stupid hate-able stuffs and I didn't have to be ashamed and scared that time when I faced it with my friend near me. I may say that I finally know what comfort means.Arigatou. I'm glad that person next to me was you, not anyone else but you. *acung empat jempol XDD* I truly think that I got a new member in my grandma's grandchildren list. hhhhh. Understand what I mean,right? =PPP I guess some stupid-silly things like 'Toilet Wanita' + 'Jln. S.Parman' was bonuses for that day, I'm really grateful that you can stay adorable till the day I met you last time. hhh. Life is definetely tough, but I'm positively think that you can go through it.Definetely! =3 I haven't check that origami website yet, but I guess it'll be such a thrilling website to sneak to. hehe. *I'll post it,guys, soon as I open it =3*
Maybe there's some-times when I think it's better not to have another memory with you, I really hope that you'll understand this (*you = some people) , I do really hope that you can understand how I feel, so can you just help come out from my own case? Maybe not by letting me do things in my own way but in the right way, I guess I'm not really walking in a right path in solving some things in my life. Maybe one or two of you may understand what I feel,what I think,or maybe you assume some things, I appreciate it. really =] It just... sometimes I just think I'm not good enough.really not good enough, I can't be that person, yes, that person who you need. and that's really way too frustating you know.hhhh.That's may be one of my reasons why I want to stop making great memories with you, because it's painful, can you please cure me from this pain then? I don't think I love to live this kind of life, maybe I'm recovering, but my wound is just like a bleeding one.touched and it'll bleed.Maybe that's also why I avoid people, I prefer not to get into somebody too deep because I'm scared.
I'm too afraid of those who are too good to me...
It's worse when you are not just good but incredibly too care about me...
It's not like I don't like to know what care is...
I don't know why, but till today, I end up hurting those people. =(
I'm sorry if you're one of them.
I'll stop my post here,it's almost 2am already and I'm defintely breaking my promise to someone.wkwkwk.=p
*I really hope he won't read this post because I've failed to make myself off to bed before one. hihi X3*
So,I guess I have to see my prince in my dreamland now? ;P
Don't be too good to me, can you?
and actually, I'm too stress to be treated as a sister, you know, can't I just be a friend? =3=
Sincerely to you,you, and you. =')
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