Wednesday, December 28, 2011

A month in Heaven

28th December 2011
A month has passed since I came back here.
I love being here, although there's nothing much to do and I mostly kill my time at home, but this is a true heaven.:|
I'm mourning for I have to go back there within two weeks. Into that Lion cage.

it's been a long time since my last post right?
I'll make sure I tell you my stories, I haven't post my 19th's photos too if i'm not mistaken.

Gonna have my shower, just woke up and realize that I love everything here because lonely isn't here.


i'm still waiting for someone's news, waiting for a sick person to be healthy again is just........ _____. :(
Not because I'm impatient, but it's always burdening me for not hearing from you. Even though I know you're busy enough because you're sick. hehehehe.




How am I supposed to complain more than this?


Thursday, November 24, 2011

X333333







yang bilang dia jelek, mati aja...
;p



Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Why

Don't know why, keep on falling for this song. Not because of its MV, neither is the choreo. Listen to its vocals and you'll know why.



TVXQ, maybe they are really the reason why I end up falling in love with korean stuffs.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

22112011

22nd November 2011 is finally here. I try my best to get back to Medan before today, but in the end it's impossible to do so. =\ So, I think maybe the only thing I can do to celebrate this two tiny glasses mortals' bithday is by dedicating today's post as theirs. Fair enough? =P

These are the two stars of today :
1. Wenny
A childhood friend of mine

She's absolutely a nagger, not really a whiner. She's fierce but sometimes could be that girl who loves to act cute *notcuteatallla,Wenny,pleasseee=p* A good listener, a Queen of Gossip, a wise sister for me, a person who can hear a serious problem and solve them together with me. She's not perfect, but I know she always try her best to be someone noticable in my life. =)

2. Duffin
Depandable.

Know him since junior high, but notice him since senior high. He's a well-planned person, overwhelmingly organized, but sometimes could be an egoist too, but really a great friend of mine who still remember and care about me and my study. I know he's struggling to be better and it's more than great,isn't it? =)

These people are people of November.
What makes them resemble each other, besides that glasses?
They're seriously hard working, hardly give up on things, passionate and really MY ROLE MODEL OF LIFE! *acung 4 jempol*
=pppp
Maybe this post is not that stunning,not that long post that talks about them in my life, this is just a pretty short post. It consists only things that I wish will happen in their lives :
happiness. colourful. best for each of you.
Let's make a wish for all the dreams that you guys have in mind so that it will also be that miracles which God choose to be written in your life stories.


Once again,
happy birthday,my friends!
Let's get older XDDDDDD

Sunday, November 20, 2011

I'll Be.


maybe it's the hardest thing to do?
to be
right
next to you...



One day..
if
the sky is falling......

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Boring~

haaaa~
Holidays' come~
Christmas' in the corner~~~~~~ =DDD
Adding some new songs to my playlist, hope you guys love it =3
Oh,what to say?
I've succesfully bring myself to another step in fashion : Fashion Management major! =D
It hasn't been a week of holiday though, but I'm deadly bored at home now. =S
I'm too scared to leave home these days, I'll spent money on silly stuffs when I walk down Orchard =SSSS
Like yesterday, I bought 3 PAIRS of shoes : Oxford - Black wedges boots x_X  *TOTALLY GUILTY PLEASUREEEEEEEE*
so,what to do these days? Not much story to share too =/ except sleeping late - waking up late every day @_@ being a private alarm for someone these days because I've nothing to do too =| Everyone's still busy bout their submissions and stuff,so it's only me alone walking down the streets~
Mommy come fasterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~~~ T^T
I have some plans in mind to do in hometown, but can I really do all of them when I officially there? :S I guess the word 'L.A.Z.Y' will come to my whole body again and I'll started to slack =,="
Spent these days eat.sleep.slack.watchdramas.eat.sleep.slack.spentmoneyonstupidstuffs.eat.sleep.slack.chat. =="
I can't find Wenny's request too~ =S
I've searched some stores to find it, but blah~~~ no one sell it =S

know what pose this is, right? did this when I'm stucked with my submission's projects last week. =p 




So, i manage to find a song that really makes me wannaaaaaaaa dance. =SSSSSSS
Jessie J - Do It Like a Dude.
it's 2010's but i've just heard it now.ck. should have used it for my last performance months ago,right? shoot. ==" *sigh.sigh.sigh*

Currently watching :
and have finished :
 nice movies =33

umm,planning to watch these 2 :

fufufu~ my holidays' full of dramasssss....
how 'bout you,guys? what're you doing? =3

Any way,because it's Saturday, umm, have a nice weekend,guys! ;D

Monday, November 14, 2011

over

it's over :D
everything's fine.... except that i have lost one of my plans for holiday tour in hometown. *sigh
still fed up thinking bout it though.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Desperately

am so hungry right now. late lunch,skipped dinner and I'm deadly hungry!
will have to stay till 3-4am maybe tonight to do some stupid stuffs. =S
I'm begging for holidays! ><

like the eyes, watching you.

With you

slept at 4am ,woke up at 9 and had a walk from Orchard to Sommerset this morning...
Ended up having a breakfast @313's Toast Box..
Today's holiday. So,yuuuup, 3 straight hectic holidays. And finally it's Monday,next Monday will be the last day of my suffers this semester :D :( :) ;3
But I guess I'll have to endure sleeping at 4am everynight till' next Monday ><
Be Strong,MYSELF! UGH!
Wondering will somebody accompany me 'till 4 everynight and manage to wake up at 6am for college? ;P

Oh yes! Finally got Missletoe in my BB's playlist from Randy :D
Lovin JB's voice... it reminds me of Mami's though :'(


I love the opening jingle sound, will keep on repwinding it if I don't hear that part ;P

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Spoil me.

:'(
How r u, dear the one who write this?

Today is the end of week 14, final weeks are one day ahead. Stuffs to be submitted and I'm dying inside, I don't know how to struggle harder than this, it's too hectic and my mind can't focus only to one stuff to do. :( Maybe I need courages? I don't know >< I realize that it's one week before holidays, yet I'm really dying in every single minutes I've passed. T^T

At least you guys who read this need to spoil me more these weeks,I'll be very unstable so please bear with me. >< Do tell me things I wanna hear, things that calm my heart and mind, don't make me worry more, because I'm afraid that I'll go crazy. O_O

Monday, October 31, 2011

Daze

Try to

love

my life

Saturday, October 29, 2011

:(((((((( Eotoke?





I put alot of effort, but it seems to be none for you,isn't it?

Black hole



Empty
  








































by Me.



 









Monday, October 24, 2011

Misery

I feel so sad. again.Can't tell her this.
I'm not brave enough to do this to her.
Today I'm going to register my specialism course in Semester 2, but I'm in doubt.
Really doubt what I'm choosing,the path I have to choose is horrible for me. What if, this isn't the path I want? What if I only listen to others compliments and never search in the deepest part of my heart , who am I?

I cry alot this week, sitting infront of my laptop makes me cry,chit chatting with my friend makes me shed my tears, looking at the TV makes me cry, even looking at the white space in my room makes me cry. I don't know why is this happening to me. Waking up in the morning hasn't been as exciting as it used to be, I often feel sad just right after I open my eyes to see where I am. Do I even enjoy my life? I doubt it. Actually, I feel alone, months here doesn't mean that I can't find any new friends here, yes I can, but I just feel they aren't those what I've been searching for.

I have to leave or at least try to avoid those people who even give me another pressure, who can't even realize how I care about them.





Can't you understand my feeling when I really need you to listen and give me some thoughts of yours? It is not that I've been so greedy that I want you to just listen and listen and listen to my nags, but can't you just give one time for me, when you just listen and try to understand me? What you do all this time was keep telling me about you you you and only you when I'm telling you my problems, telling you things that you said you want to know about me. Don't you realize how annoying somebody are when they interrupt you serious conversation with him? When I stop telling you things, you said that I treat you differently because I can't open myself and tell you what I want to say. So,what should I do? You keep doing this to me that I'm tired, I try not to and just live my life normally but I can't.
If only somebody read this, can you pass this post to this person I'm talking about ?
You never know how you treat me. When I'm this miserable, sometimes you make it horrible... :)

Monday, October 17, 2011

Close

UBElpz on Make A Gif, Animated Gifs
make animated gifs like this at MakeAGif

not really in a good mood,but I'll post things bout 9th October soon.

Above are those silly people.
I miss one photo I guess.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Ohayo-u..

Good Morning...


Decided to post a random thing about this before I go to school :)





would love to have them tomorrow morning.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Hey,Scarlet :))

I actually searched on some pictures and wanted to dedicate this to my birthday gal today, Helen Susanti :)
Happy 18th! :**
be hapy :')
You should be one. Successfull n admirable one. :3

top left one is so HELEN! XDDD

=D nice?

:)


Redish.


Monday, October 3, 2011

fashion?










i think i'm sick of fashion.
='(
what should I do?
i really wanna scream.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Hi,10th..

October's in the town.
Time flies.
So does my age.
My last -teen experience will come in a week.
not to excited, but somehow wondering how will it be.
my wish?
I wish they will know how to spoil my wish.
Because I'm simply praying I can get something I never imagine.
It doesn't have to be a thing.
just a simple unexpected greeting will be great.
I miss my eighteen moment already.
I miss you. guys. :')

silly.

There's no way


i wish i could change
i wish i could stop being the same old me
i wish i could change
i wish i could be who you want me to be
i wish i could change
i wish i could stop putting my blues on you

Burn

Dedicated to one of my friend... =]
Wish you read and listen to this...

Let it burn... can you?

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Eat Me Up

you've eaten me up.. somehow.

Hey,there..
I would love to type and post something here. But I don't know how to start and tell you all this curiosity in me...
Someone has changed. I think myself too.
I don't know. I really don't know what's in my head and my heart.
Life has been boring in some ways. God, it's not even a year... eotoke?
What I need to get back to normal?
I have been in this case for what? months?
*sigh* 

Top Shop
what do you think?

I've been wondering.. How are you? Fine or ... ?
I don't want to feel anything.
You know, because when I started to, I'll crash.
How 'bout you?
Have we been honest to each other lately?
I think we miss lots of chit-chat time, don't we?

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Another Rand-o-my

Just wanted to post random photos yet it stucks here =)
Guess I'll spend this year's in tears again. That's fine, at least I realize some things...

Just thought this' nice =3




but you aren't here,are you? hha








yup,just incase. But I guess you won't?
=]

Monday, September 26, 2011

Heartstrings X'3

daram daram daramm~
I'm in love again with him! =D
Maybe some of you know who he is X'3





Saturday, September 24, 2011

I'm no one.

hey,B...
it's Saturday and tomorrow will be my last term's holiday =( so sad... i've had 2 days fun including today, it's always great to spend my time to explore this place with some of my friends.. we went to watch Johnny English yesterday, wanted to visit Merlion + Esplanade but ended hanging out at Bucks in Marina Square... and today I started my day at noon, had lunch with friends, splited up and I went to Bugis to meet the other 2, had some great + fun photoshoot + afternoon soyamilk + burger king, we also meet another 1, four of us then went to the Merlion,and ended the trip by having dinner at Ion foodhall,we had some fun chit chatting,gossiping and some silly jokes included in it. =)
It's fun.

umm,it's been days without any news, I guess I have to be strong and continue it this way? =)
Must get used to this. I'm no one afterall, it's not my right to know everything you do. =)
Anyway, how are you? Fine? These days are not too good for me, this place has been a very cold and silent place...

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

fiuh....
FINALLY WENT THROUGH SUBMISSIONS!
I didn't sleep at all the night before yesterday, 8am-not even showered-went to school with whatever clothes I saw on my first glance (thanks God it's not my pajamas) reached home at noon, ate instant noodle,took a shower,ZZZZZZ slept till 9pm. what a Monday. =="
woke up,had my dinner and went to bed again at 12-1am.
It's raining all day today, I had my eye and wallet vacation this day long >< started at noon and finish it at night. Spent about 100 bucks for clothes,accessories and shoes. They're such guilty pleasures. I do this often, especially when stress is on the top of my brain list.
I took a snap of me wearing F21 -dress+Rusty blazer- and someone's not so happy about it, he's talking about me getting thinner in really unappropriate way , he's the only one complining about me losing weight , others are just too happy to see I lose a couple of number. But I guess we have lost some time talking silly things about what've happened this whole day,am I not right? I'm just too busy, and you're just too tired and sleepy. sigh. And when I'm here waiting and spending some moments just to wait for you to have some time, you simply don't have it. being like this won't last till December, you know. Where are all that talks bout sharing only when nights come will just be fine and enough? hh. I don't think so. =)

I want this tee so bad ='(((( Can anyone find it for me. I spent bucks just to find the right size for me to wear today, yet I couldn't have it. huhuhuhuhuhuhu. so sad. X'(

Friday, September 16, 2011

Hi,there..

Hello,Guys...
Long time no post.
Since I can hardly 'breathe' these weeks, I've to hold my will to type and post stuffs here. Yesterday was my fifth day sleeping at 5am and only slept for 4-5 hours. I know if I keep on doing this, I've shorten my age. =="
Last submissions for this term is on Monday, I believe I've been on pressure for looooooooong time. >< I can't help myself but thrown myself to shopping today, I spent S$50 on Charles&Keith and a vintage bag. Quite nice,ei? S$20 for a pair of Charles&Keith is really a best buy,isn't it? hehehe. I've had this massive headache since this morning, When I look around, I feel like I'm still in my dream, every single thing I did was just so bluuuurrrr~ ><
And I'm feeling so sick right now, but I still have works to be done. huhuhuhu. Help me,any body~ ><
It's a quarter past 12 already,and it means it's Saturday... Monday is really coming soon,don't you think so? I'm so dead. really. I really want to scream as loud as I can, I wanna cry, something inside this really wanna jump out in tears, I just can't... =S I wonder why? =S I really need dance life back, everytime I listen to those musics and rythm,I missed my crews. HUHUHU
Hi,there UKDC,how are you? ='(
I really wanna hugs some of my fellas out there right now, I still have to hold on till December to do it *sigh*
I miss performing and dancing with those bass rythm,andrenaline,fun,shouts,spotlights,tiredness,skipping heartbeat,nervous,fun,laughter, and mostly I miss those people who did those things with me... =(((
I want that so badly that everytime I recall it,I feel devastated... *big sigh sigh sighhhh*
To be this busy really doesn't help me in recovering my mood,you know, since those sleepless nights. *UGH!
I wonder since when I went to bed on 12-1 am that makes me can't survive staying till 5am. =S I used to do it and have no problem doing it. Is this what we call 'YOU ARE OLDER' ? X'S

Anyway,this are some MV, I found it's really shooting my craves...
You can find Quest Crew in one of these MVs.




hey =3
a hug with a note 'nite' mostly everynight before bed really makes me wanna hug you, don't you ever think about it? hhh. I hope you have fun in college...

Night.... *another sleepless night is waiting* T^T

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

So...

Then what should I do?
I don't know where we stand.
I don't know what we are.
I'm asking 'us' to stop it.
Yet you'll always be the one who couldn't bare with it.
So what am I supposed to do?
It isn't wrong to be close to each other.
It's NOT that I couldn't find myself enjoy it.
I know everything will just be fine.
For it I'm scared.
Afraid to be dragged too deep inside 'us'.
Before it comes to whatever other thing it could be, I wanna stop it.
I'm asking whether it's fine for 'us' to stop it.
To stop to miss, to stop to call each other this and that way, to stop to worry on either you or me.
I'm not a good person.
I'm also a human who could crave more one day.
So, before it comes to that point, couldn't we just stop?
It is not like this will be so hard for you to do.
I find yourself pretty much fine without all those stuffs, so why should we keep on doing it?
If you ask me why, I'll still answer it "Nothing,I'm fine", but aren't you scared if.. just if all of this will end into nothing?
Even someone else could state it's not normal to be this close.
That's why I'm asking, so how?
Yet I think we tried thrice and still you are the one who seek for it thrice.
So what should I do?
How should I step through it?
I know I can be changed by anybody.
It's not like you just need me to be one.
That's why I'm asking.
You're the one who said, if this person you've trusted has gone, maybe you'll just find another one.
So, I suggest, just let that other persons replace me. =)
I enjoy this too much that I'm scared.
Before I become a beast, I've warned and asked you.
Thrice and we still come back to this path.
So I guess I'll play this game with you 'till the end.
'till there's no more left,things changed and we're no longer be 'us'
Yes?
Do that sounds okay?
=)

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Stress Post. HA HA.

Gonna stay strong.
Yes. I definitely MUST.
or else I'm gonna dragged to the creepiest part of schooling. *sigh*

I miss stuffs, miss spoiled, miss laugh, miss you, you, you, you, you, you, you. see, if I have to type you again,then this post will be overloaded by the word you. There are so many things I miss, but I'm pretty much sure that this thing will be paid somewhat later.

enjoy.
I've tuned this for months, and I find it good..

Hi,how are you? =)

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Friday, September 2, 2011

Have Faith

Hi,there...
Sorry for not posting for days, things are quite hectic. My cousins were here last Friday and they went back home yesterday, so.... i spent whole days from Monday-Wednesday with them. We went to some places,USS was one of them. I'm thinking about going there with other companion in the end of this year... but it won't come true unless they are really going to visit me here on December.
I spent last night doing my stuffs,accompanied by bb+twitter+thewindyAC.==" felt horrible, I slept at 5am and woke up at 8am this morning, had a class at 11am..... I really think this things are getting sucker and suckerrrrrrrr. Yet, Daddy gave a surprise after my classes, my friends visited me at college, so we went to watch SMURF after that. Have some fun with them hours ago. Thanks,Dad. =))

I can't believe it's Friday night, it means it's been a week since I went back home. And I only have 2 days left for my textile class....can you feel how frustated I am? *sigh* now i'm really thinking I took a wrong decision, plus lack of courage. T^T Should I really go back home and continue PIA? hahahahaha. It's really out of my list. XD

I'm trying to fix lots of stuffs happening around me. Especially people. I can't separate things clearly, that's why i do this. Avoiding things, make sure that I don't feel anything. Because I've had enough. =]
Because I'm greedy, because I'm actually not a good person, yet I'm a very self-centred for certain things. So,please forgive me... for those who I've hurted for long... or are suffering because of me... Maybe in the end, it only benefits me. =|



silly stupid shrek


3am. doing stuffs. =="

XDDDDDD

Round and Round his face goes!

Opening today

Johnny English's version!

SMURF!


sihiiiy~ =>

USS








and last...





2nd September 2011.
Goodluck my dear friend.
We all know your dream is in your hand and will always be there.
=)
Have faith.