*SIGH

I keep on listening this 'Mystery' song in the middle of the night. I shouldn't let myself to think about ___ tonight, but I do. shit.
Wanting to dance real bad in the middle of the night is somewhat a problem too yeah? I'm listening to songs and musics,and I wanna dance so bad.... BUT,it's 1 am already. aaaaa=="

Do you know these boys?

So,I'll post some photos left in my bb since months ago. *Sorry for their quality,I captured them with lappie's camera from my phone's monitor ='3 *
Before these memories fade away,before they're forgotten and before we miss it, I think it's better for me to post it here. I'll miss them . For sure. =]

B3?

Mami..

Awan!

Randut =3

Borby XD

K! =]

There are some other photos too taken from Bb's camera... I'll post it soon. *if I remember ya .hehe*

P.S. These boys should just find jobs in SM Entertainment, they may have replace that SNSD *Mr.Taxi~ Taxi~ Taxi~~* ahahhahahhaha XDDD

When I come back home, I think.

Hi,B~
I'm home. I wonder why do I feel sleepy so early these days?
Anyway,let me introduce you a brand I've just known yesterday :

and ofcourse,there's one fav thing I have from it. kekekekeke~ =3

but still, that 'happy' doesn't last forever. Now I don't know how to recover, for shopping and doing things I used to do to recover my mood don't fix this situation of mine at all.

Maybe this is going to be my-soon-school

Now I'm searching for my passion. Where are you? =S

Here I am

I'm sitting infront of this little heavy thing I'm typing on. It used to be silver, but it's now covered in purple. I don't know why I get this sudden sad everytime I try to type something inside you, B.... will it always be like this?
=(
Everything has started its path,moving in any direction, I'm moving too, but I still have those hopes.
I'm writing a letter, a letter which I begin with a green piece. I wrote a sentence and I stopped,  don't know how to begin my feeling in it, to spill it out in papers seems to be as hard as to type in texts, and to talk about it from my mouth. I guess I still believe that nothing happens when I meet ___. =] I hope this is just my silly negative feeling inside me. just say what you wanna say,don't do this to me. Keep on guessing and    hoping are not my game... I plan to write some other letters if I NEED to... I think I will write those others to. Today I bought some things I searched for days,hehe,I guess I have this little pleasure and satisfaction this afternon-evening. I bought that 'round' thing too,something someone wants since last December? haha. It's simple, ofcourse blue, like what he choosed, yet I really fallen for the 'With Love' one, its only one left leh~~~~ T^T I hope this blue won't dissapoint me lah.. =3
I'm looking forward for that day, I'm hoping to have a wonderful day to spend,you know,that's why I want it to be true. =] When everything you do with others can't make you happy for a whole day,this is the last thing I hope can fix my day.
So,the last thing to do while I'm in Spore now is to look for a thing that best to describe that person who will get that green letter as his/her first letter. I'm still confuse,whether to give that letter or not. I don't want things to be worse when actually that's all only come from my mind,my thoughts and not the real things happen. But usually what I feel is true. =SS Let's pray that all of those 'weird syndromes' only come from my mind. >< *finger crossed*

Okay,if I keep on typing then I guess I'll spill out things that shouldn't be typed here. hehe.
This is all I have for today =X

"If someone doesn't tell you something, doesn't mean he's lying. Ask yourself first: Are you a good listener? "
this one punched my heart. =]

How come?

See, although we are actually joking right now, I'm already sad thinking about not having a person like you in months,we should call it in days, cause it's not exactly monthsss left for us to be this close. =')
I don't know, I'm pretty clueless about myself. I'm dying to know what I feel right now. Am I mad?furious?or what? Somebody guess it for me please.
Another story :
One of my listener slept over at my place yesterday, we talked about tons of things that we only slept for 3 hours, we talked till 5.30am,and we still antusiastic in sharing. That was when I felt that I need to build lots of new things,start those broken things in these past months and fix everything, may God walk with me... I share lots of things, but honestly, I still miss other moments when I share things like this at night. Things have been flat for months.... I guess it's because there are lots of 'you' leaving my life.
I'm pretty confuse in signing La Salle's student contract, I'm scared. how come? I'm too in doubt that I'll take the best path for myself. can you tell me what to do? I'm tired for I always giving thought, yet no one ever give me one here... =(


The one who's clueless and sad about leaving you you and you
Caris C

Go

So what have I done that make me like this?
What did I do that make me feel this way?
Go away my feeling,GO!
I hate to nurture such feeling inside me.

It's not full

Rain.

It's empty.